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Rachel Adams
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Rachel Adams
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I spent some of the darkest months of my life struggling to find a reason to get up in the morning. In my first awakening, I disassociated from my parents. My first husband cheated on me. My second husband carried on long affairs over the course of 15 years and told me he regretted ever bringing a child into the world with me. I had convinced myself that I wasn’t fit to be a mother, a spouse, or a daughter. Other than being a good accountant, I could find no value within myself to offer the world.
I would spend the next year of my life clawing my way out of the darkness, desperate to find any glimmer of light that would offer hope. Hope that I wasn’t worthless. Hope that I was worthy of love. Hope that the world was not the dark and terrifying place that I had again grown to believe it to be.
As dark as those days were, they did not last forever. I learned some very hard lessons and eventually found myself not only surrounded by love and light, but I also learned that I myself was a light all along. In this book I share my story with you. I share in painful and sometimes humorous detail how the darkness crept in and almost swallowed me whole. You’ll find, however, that my story has a happy ending and some beautiful lessons that might just bring a little light to your world as well.
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