
The First 20 Years of My Life, In the FLDS
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Jenelle Jessop

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About this listen
This short book is written in 3 parts. Part 1 is the history, indoctrination, and setting of the church. Part 2 is my story in the church. In part 3, I talk about the struggles I face as a result of my upbringing, what I’ve learned about the world, and where I am now in this journey of life.
Much time and revision went into this book. If I mentioned you and you feel I treated you unfairly, I apologize. If I did not mention you and you feel that I should have, know I did not deliberately exclude you.
I hope you enjoy this short book. Happy reading!
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