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The Secret Practice: Eighteen Years on the Dark Side of Yoga

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The Secret Practice: Eighteen Years on the Dark Side of Yoga

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🏆 Award-Winning Memoir

  • Winner, 2024 PenCraft Best Book Award – Memoir
  • Finalist, 2024 National Indie Excellence Awards – Relationships
  • Finalist, 2024 IAN Best Book Awards – True Story
  • Honorable Mention, 2024 Readers’ Favorite Awards – Religion/Philosophy


He promised spiritual freedom. Instead, she lost herself—until she broke the cycle.

The Secret Practice is the gripping, true story of Joelle Tamraz’s 18-year entanglement with a master manipulator cloaked in the robes of a spiritual teacher. Fans of Educated, Unfollow, and Netflix’s Bikram will find this memoir impossible to put down.

“Phenomenal.” —Daniella Mestyanek Young, author of Uncultured

“An intense and suspenseful memoir.” —Kirkus Reviews

“Captivating and hopeful… such an important story.” —Jean Brown, SEEK Safely & author of This Sweet Life

At just twenty-two, Joelle traveled to Rishikesh, India—the spiritual heart of yoga—seeking truth and enlightenment. Instead, she found Arun: charming, magnetic, and deeply manipulative. Over the next two decades, he dismantled her identity through emotional, social, financial, and physical control.

Still, she believed in the promise of true love and transformation—until she finally found the strength to reclaim her voice, her worth, and her life.

Told with raw vulnerability and quiet power, The Secret Practice is more than a memoir—it’s an exposé of a malignant narcissist, a warning about deceptive spirituality, and a courageous step into the light after years in the shadows.

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I really appreciated how honest and vulnerable the author was in sharing her journey. She didn’t shy away from the hard parts, and that raw honesty made her story all the more powerful. I’m so glad she broke free from those mental and physical chains—her strength and growth are truly inspiring. This book is a reminder that healing is possible, and freedom is worth fighting for.

A Powerful Journey to Freedom and Healing

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Saw this book on knitting cult lady's video and knew it must be good if she recommened it lol. The story was engaging enough and kept my attention for most of the book. it's an interesting telling of a young woman's relationship with a toxic, likely narcissistic yogi who fashions himself as a guru and uses that to get what he wants. at times I wanted to scream at her for being so gullible but it's important to understand how these relationships take place. overall it's a good listen

interesting story about a toxic relationship

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From the beginning made it sound like she was in an abusive relationship and that Yoga was tormenting her. She even went as far as saying the identity of the characters in the book was changed to protect them. From what? I seriously doubt you would spend the majority of your life obsessed with yoga then wake up one day and say, yeah, It's bad. Sorry but I just didn't think your story was a warning to anyone that is conjuring up the spirits. You married a man who took advantage of you. Happens all the time. The End.

Well not what I expected

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