The Intimacy

Coming home to London, Tallulah is looking for a second chance, a fresh start. Her friends know something is wrong, but they have no idea what’s she’s running from. Tallulah is not herself. The usually happy, bubbly, excitable girl is faking it. Inside, she’s a complete mess, but she refuses to tell anyone why, choosing to keep it a secret - a secret that makes her skin crawl and leaves her crying herself to sleep.

What are you supposed to do when everything inside of you cringes away from the one you love? When one touch is enough to make you scream? One kiss enough to make you run? Jarrod Thorpe promises to wait for her. It's everything she'd normally want to hear but now...it's too much and everything inside her tells her to run for the hills. Finally, she's told her friends about what happened in Brighton but she can't face the idea of telling Jarrod. What if he doesn't love her anymore? What if he gives her the same look everyone else is giving her? What if he pities her?

It’s not been easy. She’s fought against me every step of the way, she’s fought against loving me, letting me love her, fought against a relationship, fought against our future, and then, when she finally concedes, when she finally gives in and sees the future I see for us, this happens. This is a story of bravery and overcoming immense obstacles. It's about choosing to trust again when your every instinct tells you not to.

"I’m not the guy for you." It’s a sentence I’ve said more times than I can count. It’s usually the sentence that follows, “so, are we...?” or “are you my boyfriend?” or “do you want to come to my sister’s wedding with me?” I’m not exaggerating either when I say it. I mean it. Every single time I say it. The girls on the other hand, they don’t seem to like it.