-
By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead
- Narrated by: Kathryn Merry
- Length: 6 hrs and 5 mins
Failed to add items
Add to Cart failed.
Add to Wish List failed.
Remove from wishlist failed.
Adding to library failed
Follow podcast failed
Unfollow podcast failed
Get 2 free audiobooks during trial.
Buy for $19.95
No default payment method selected.
We are sorry. We are not allowed to sell this product with the selected payment method
Publisher's summary
After a lifetime of being bullied, Daelyn is broken beyond repair. She has tried to kill herself before, and is determined to get it right this time. Though her parents think they can protect her, she finds a Web site for "completers" that seems made just for her. She blogs on its forums, purging her harrowing history. At her private Catholic school, the only person who interacts with her is a boy named Santana. No matter how poorly she treats him, he just won’t leave her alone. And it's too late for Daelyn to be letting people into her life...isn’t it?
In this harrowing, compelling novel, Julie Anne Peters shines a light on what might make a teenager want to kill herself, as well as how she might start to bring herself back from the edge. A discussion guide and resource list prepared by "bullycide" expert C. J. Bott are included in the back matter.
Listeners also enjoyed...
-
Girl in Pieces
- By: Kathleen Glasgow
- Narrated by: Julia Whelan, Kathleen Glasgow
- Length: 10 hrs and 42 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Charlotte Davis is in pieces. At 17 she's already lost more than most people do in a lifetime. But she's learned how to forget. The broken glass washes away the sorrow until there is nothing but calm. You don't have to think about your father and the river. Your best friend, who is gone forever. Or your mother, who has nothing left to give you. Every new scar hardens Charlie's heart just a little more, yet it still hurts so much. It hurts enough to not care anymore, which is sometimes what has to happen before you can find your way back from the edge.
-
-
Touching, Sobering, Fascinating
- By Wendi on 05-31-17
By: Kathleen Glasgow
-
Define 'Normal'
- By: Julie Anne Peters
- Narrated by: Christine Lakin
- Length: 5 hrs and 34 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
This thoughtful, wry story is about two girls - a 'punk' and a 'priss' - who find themselves facing each other in a peer-counseling program and discover that they have some surprising things in common.
-
-
Heartfelt, Heartbreaking and Well-Acted
- By MrAmazon on 12-09-15
-
Luna
- By: Julie Anne Peters
- Narrated by: Elizabeth Evans
- Length: 7 hrs and 46 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Regan's brother Liam can't stand the person he is during the day. Like the moon from whom Liam has chosen his female namesake, his true self, Luna, only reveals herself at night. In the secrecy of his basement bedroom Liam transforms himself into the beautiful girl he longs to be, with help from his sister's clothes and makeup. Now, everything is about to change - Luna is preparing to emerge from her cocoon. But are Liam's family and friends ready to welcome Luna into their lives?
-
-
It just doesn't work
- By Dawn on 01-29-19
-
Thirteen Reasons Why
- By: Jay Asher
- Narrated by: Debra Wiseman, Joel Johnstone
- Length: 6 hrs and 24 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Clay Jensen returns home from school to find a strange package with his name on it lying on his porch. Inside he discovers several cassette tapes recorded by Hannah Baker, his classmate and crush, who committed suicide two weeks earlier. Hannah's voice explains that there are 13 reasons she decided to end her life. Clay is one of them. If he listens, he'll find out why.
-
-
An Ideal Audio Book
- By Diana on 01-10-11
By: Jay Asher
-
My Heart and Other Black Holes
- By: Jasmine Warga
- Narrated by: Rebecca Lowman
- Length: 8 hrs and 14 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
-
-
Depressingly Delightful
- By FanB14 on 06-20-15
By: Jasmine Warga
-
Keeping You a Secret
- By: Julie Anne Peters
- Narrated by: Rebekah Levin
- Length: 6 hrs and 22 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
First time I saw her was in the mirror on my locker door. I'd kicked my swim gear onto the bottom shelf and was reaching to the top for my calc book when she opened her locker across the hall. She had a streaked blonde ponytail dangling out the back of her baseball cap.... We slammed our lockers in unison and turned. Her eyes met mine. "Hi," she said, smiling. My stomach fluttered. "Hi," I answered automatically. She was new. Had to be. I would've noticed her. She sauntered away, but not before I caught a glimpse of her T-shirt. It said: IMRU? Am I what?
-
-
A story of how not to love
- By BRUCE L. MANSFIELD on 03-02-14
-
Girl in Pieces
- By: Kathleen Glasgow
- Narrated by: Julia Whelan, Kathleen Glasgow
- Length: 10 hrs and 42 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Charlotte Davis is in pieces. At 17 she's already lost more than most people do in a lifetime. But she's learned how to forget. The broken glass washes away the sorrow until there is nothing but calm. You don't have to think about your father and the river. Your best friend, who is gone forever. Or your mother, who has nothing left to give you. Every new scar hardens Charlie's heart just a little more, yet it still hurts so much. It hurts enough to not care anymore, which is sometimes what has to happen before you can find your way back from the edge.
-
-
Touching, Sobering, Fascinating
- By Wendi on 05-31-17
By: Kathleen Glasgow
-
Define 'Normal'
- By: Julie Anne Peters
- Narrated by: Christine Lakin
- Length: 5 hrs and 34 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
This thoughtful, wry story is about two girls - a 'punk' and a 'priss' - who find themselves facing each other in a peer-counseling program and discover that they have some surprising things in common.
-
-
Heartfelt, Heartbreaking and Well-Acted
- By MrAmazon on 12-09-15
-
Luna
- By: Julie Anne Peters
- Narrated by: Elizabeth Evans
- Length: 7 hrs and 46 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Regan's brother Liam can't stand the person he is during the day. Like the moon from whom Liam has chosen his female namesake, his true self, Luna, only reveals herself at night. In the secrecy of his basement bedroom Liam transforms himself into the beautiful girl he longs to be, with help from his sister's clothes and makeup. Now, everything is about to change - Luna is preparing to emerge from her cocoon. But are Liam's family and friends ready to welcome Luna into their lives?
-
-
It just doesn't work
- By Dawn on 01-29-19
-
Thirteen Reasons Why
- By: Jay Asher
- Narrated by: Debra Wiseman, Joel Johnstone
- Length: 6 hrs and 24 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Clay Jensen returns home from school to find a strange package with his name on it lying on his porch. Inside he discovers several cassette tapes recorded by Hannah Baker, his classmate and crush, who committed suicide two weeks earlier. Hannah's voice explains that there are 13 reasons she decided to end her life. Clay is one of them. If he listens, he'll find out why.
-
-
An Ideal Audio Book
- By Diana on 01-10-11
By: Jay Asher
-
My Heart and Other Black Holes
- By: Jasmine Warga
- Narrated by: Rebecca Lowman
- Length: 8 hrs and 14 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
-
-
Depressingly Delightful
- By FanB14 on 06-20-15
By: Jasmine Warga
-
Keeping You a Secret
- By: Julie Anne Peters
- Narrated by: Rebekah Levin
- Length: 6 hrs and 22 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
First time I saw her was in the mirror on my locker door. I'd kicked my swim gear onto the bottom shelf and was reaching to the top for my calc book when she opened her locker across the hall. She had a streaked blonde ponytail dangling out the back of her baseball cap.... We slammed our lockers in unison and turned. Her eyes met mine. "Hi," she said, smiling. My stomach fluttered. "Hi," I answered automatically. She was new. Had to be. I would've noticed her. She sauntered away, but not before I caught a glimpse of her T-shirt. It said: IMRU? Am I what?
-
-
A story of how not to love
- By BRUCE L. MANSFIELD on 03-02-14
-
Impulse
- By: Ellen Hopkins
- Narrated by: Laura Flanagan, Jeremy Guskin, Steve Coombs
- Length: 6 hrs and 48 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
The handsome son of wealthy parents, Connor has everything anyone could want...except his family's love and affection. Jailed for years after killing his mother's child-molesting boyfriend, Tony is confused about his sexuality. Manic-depressive Vanessa cuts herself. All three stories intertwine in a brutally honest story about pain and resilience.
-
-
Everything to want in a book❤️
- By Jazmine on 07-04-15
By: Ellen Hopkins
-
I'm Glad My Mom Died
- By: Jennette McCurdy
- Narrated by: Jennette McCurdy
- Length: 6 hrs and 26 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Jennette McCurdy was six years old when she had her first acting audition. Her mother’s dream was for her only daughter to become a star, and Jennette would do anything to make her mother happy. So she went along with what Mom called “calorie restriction." She endured extensive at-home makeovers while Mom chided, “Your eyelashes are invisible, okay? You think Dakota Fanning doesn’t tint hers?” She was even showered by Mom until age sixteen while sharing her diaries, email, and all her income. In I’m Glad My Mom Died, Jennette recounts all this in unflinching detail.
-
-
Unexpectedly poor narration
- By Blurryface on 08-10-22
By: Jennette McCurdy
-
The Way I Used to Be
- By: Amber Smith
- Narrated by: Rebekkah Ross
- Length: 9 hrs and 45 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn’t change who she was. But the night her brother’s best friend rapes her, Eden’s world capsizes. What was once simple, is now complex. What Eden once loved—who she once loved—she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true, is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she’s supposed to tell someone what happened but she can’t. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.
-
-
Tear jerking, jaw breaking, just a whole lot
- By Elena S. on 06-22-18
By: Amber Smith
-
Stiff
- The Curious Lives of Human Cadavers
- By: Mary Roach
- Narrated by: Shelly Frasier
- Length: 8 hrs
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
For two thousand years, cadavers have been involved in science's boldest strides and weirdest undertakings. They've tested France's first guillotines, ridden the NASA Space Shuttle, been crucified in a Parisian laboratory to test the authenticity of the Shroud of Turin, and helped solve the mystery of TWA Flight 800. For every new surgical procedure, from heart transplants to gender reassignment surgery, cadavers have been there alongside surgeons, making history in their quiet way.
-
-
I worked with cadavers for years, but....
- By POQA on 11-11-12
By: Mary Roach
-
Lolita
- By: Vladimir Nabokov
- Narrated by: Jeremy Irons
- Length: 11 hrs and 28 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Awe and exhilaration—along with heartbreak and mordant wit—abound in Lolita, which tells the story of the aging Humbert Humbert's obsession for the nymphet Dolores Haze. Lolita is also the story of a hypercivilized European colliding with the cheerful barbarism of postwar America.
-
-
An Absolutely Gorgeous Audible Experience
- By Jim on 10-26-05
By: Vladimir Nabokov
-
Scarred
- By: Joanne Macgregor
- Narrated by: Kelsey Egan, Richard Lothian
- Length: 6 hrs and 43 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Sloane Munster had the perfect life - until she didn't. Now 17-year-old Sloane is trying to reboot her life after a serious accident left her badly scarred and emotionally traumatized. Starting her senior year at a different school, she recognizes Luke Naughton, a swimmer whom she once had a crush on, in her new class. But when she smiles at him, he glares back with revulsion, and she's sure he's disgusted by her ugly scar.
-
-
The ending is just STUPID
- By Effie on 02-05-19
By: Joanne Macgregor
-
Speak
- 20th Anniversary Edition
- By: Laurie Halse Anderson
- Narrated by: Mandy Siegfried, Ashley C. Ford, Jason Reynolds, and others
- Length: 5 hrs and 48 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
From her first moment at Merryweather High, Melinda Sordino knows she's an outcast. She busted an end-of-summer party by calling the cops, a major infraction in high-school society, so her old friends won't talk to her, and people she doesn't know glare at her. She retreats into her head, where the lies and hypocrisies of high school stand in stark relief to her own silence, making her all the more mute.
-
-
Recommend with Slight Reservations
- By FanB14 on 05-21-12
-
All the Bright Places
- Movie Tie-In Edition
- By: Jennifer Niven
- Narrated by: Kirby Heyborne, Ariadne Meyers
- Length: 11 hrs and 4 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Theodore Finch is fascinated by death, and he constantly thinks of ways he might die. But each time, something good, no matter how small, stops him. Violet Markey lives for the future, counting the days until graduation, when she can escape her Indiana town and her aching grief in the wake of her sister's recent death. When Finch and Violet meet on the ledge of the bell tower at school, it's unclear who saves whom.
-
-
Best YA Quirky Love Story of 2015
- By FanB14 on 06-09-15
By: Jennifer Niven
-
Paperweight
- By: Meg Haston
- Narrated by: Mandy Siegfried
- Length: 8 hrs and 8 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Seventeen-year-old Stevie is trapped. In her life. And now in an eating-disorder treatment center on the dusty outskirts of the New Mexico desert. Life in the center is regimented and intrusive, a nightmare come true. Nurses and therapists watch Stevie at mealtime, accompany her to the bathroom, and challenge her to eat the foods she's worked so hard to avoid.
-
-
The Fake Southern Accent? Yeeeeesh!
- By Daryl on 06-30-17
By: Meg Haston
-
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest
- 50th Anniversary Edition
- By: Ken Kesey, Robert Faggen - introduction
- Narrated by: John C. Reilly
- Length: 10 hrs and 32 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Boisterous, ribald, and ultimately shattering, Ken Kesey's One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest has left an indelible mark on the literature of our time. Turning conventional notions of sanity and insanity on their heads, the novel tells the unforgettable story of a mental ward and its inhabitants, especially tyrannical Big Nurse Ratched and Randle Patrick McMurphy, the brawling, fun-loving new inmate who resolves to oppose her.
-
-
Fantastic
- By Scott on 08-03-12
By: Ken Kesey, and others
-
Forgive Me, Leonard Peacock
- By: Matthew Quick
- Narrated by: Noah Galvin
- Length: 6 hrs and 19 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Today is Leonard Peacock's birthday. It is also the day he hides a gun in his backpack. Because today is the day he will kill his former best friend, and then himself, with his grandfather's P-38 pistol. But first he must say good-bye to the four people who matter most to him: his Humphrey Bogart - obsessed next-door neighbor, Walt; his classmate Baback, a violin virtuoso; Lauren, the Christian homeschooler he has a crush on; and Herr Silverman, who teaches the high school's class on the Holocaust.
-
-
Required reading for humans
- By L. Gutman on 08-14-13
By: Matthew Quick
-
The I-5 Killer
- By: Ann Rule, Andy Stack
- Narrated by: Laural Merlington
- Length: 10 hrs and 3 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
As a young man, Randall Woodfield had it all; he was a star athlete with good looks and an award-winning student. Working in the swinging West Coast bar scene, he had more than his share of women. But he wanted more than just sex. An appetite for unspeakable violent acts led him to cruise the I-5 highway through California to Washington, leaving a trail of victims along the way. As the list of the dead grew, the police mobilized to stop a twisted killer who had 44 known deaths to his name.
-
-
Ann Rule always delivers
- By Anonymous User on 10-17-19
By: Ann Rule, and others
Editorial reviews
Narrator Kathryn Merry gives Daelyn Rice a voice almost deadened with pain after a lifetime of bullying, but also lets her intelligence and vulnerability shine through. Daelyn has tried to kill herself before, and although her parents try to protect her, she finds a Website that will give her advice on suicide and a chance to talk about why she wants to die. The only thing getting in the way is a boy at her school who keeps trying to speak to her even though she rejects him at every turn. Merry's performance is mesmerizing and listeners will find themselves caring and fearing for Daelyn, hoping that she will somehow find a way to come back from the brink.
Related to this topic
-
Scarred
- By: Joanne Macgregor
- Narrated by: Kelsey Egan, Richard Lothian
- Length: 6 hrs and 43 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Sloane Munster had the perfect life - until she didn't. Now 17-year-old Sloane is trying to reboot her life after a serious accident left her badly scarred and emotionally traumatized. Starting her senior year at a different school, she recognizes Luke Naughton, a swimmer whom she once had a crush on, in her new class. But when she smiles at him, he glares back with revulsion, and she's sure he's disgusted by her ugly scar.
-
-
The ending is just STUPID
- By Effie on 02-05-19
By: Joanne Macgregor
-
Luna
- By: Julie Anne Peters
- Narrated by: Elizabeth Evans
- Length: 7 hrs and 46 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Regan's brother Liam can't stand the person he is during the day. Like the moon from whom Liam has chosen his female namesake, his true self, Luna, only reveals herself at night. In the secrecy of his basement bedroom Liam transforms himself into the beautiful girl he longs to be, with help from his sister's clothes and makeup. Now, everything is about to change - Luna is preparing to emerge from her cocoon. But are Liam's family and friends ready to welcome Luna into their lives?
-
-
It just doesn't work
- By Dawn on 01-29-19
-
A List of Cages
- By: Robin Roe
- Narrated by: Graham Halstead, Christopher Gebauer
- Length: 8 hrs and 17 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
When Adam Blake lands the best elective ever in his senior year, serving as an aide to the school psychologist, he thinks he's got it made. Sure, it means a lot of sitting around, which isn't easy for a guy with ADHD, but he can't complain, since he gets to spend the period texting all his friends. Then the doctor asks him to track down the troubled freshman who keeps dodging her, and Adam discovers that the boy is Julian - the foster brother he hasn't seen in five years.
-
-
Heart wrenching!
- By Heather Shaver on 02-28-18
By: Robin Roe
-
Drowning Instinct
- By: Ilsa J. Bick
- Narrated by: Kathleen McInerney
- Length: 9 hrs and 47 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
There are stories where the girl gets her prince, and they live happily ever after. (This is not one of those stories.) Jenna Lord's first 16 years were not exactly a fairy tale. Her father is a controlling psycho and her mother is a drunk. She used to count on her older brother - until he shipped off to Iraq. And then, of course, there was the time she almost died in a fire.
-
-
Disturbing, beautiful, awfully komplex and...
- By Rainer on 03-28-12
By: Ilsa J. Bick
-
Dark Room Etiquette
- By: Robin Roe
- Narrated by: Andrew J. Andersen
- Length: 12 hrs and 16 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Sixteen-year-old Sayers Wayte has everything. Popularity, good looks, perfect grades—there's nothing Sayers' family money can't buy. Until he's kidnapped by a man who tells him the privileged life he's been living is based on a lie. Trapped in a windowless room, without knowing why he's been taken or how long the man plans to keep him shut away, Sayers faces a terrifying new reality. To survive, he must forget the world he once knew, and play the part his abductor has created for him.
-
-
Absolutely brilliant
- By Shelley on 01-20-23
By: Robin Roe
-
Shade
- By: Jeri Smith-Ready
- Narrated by: Khristine Hvam
- Length: 8 hrs and 49 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
When her boyfriend dies a most untimely death, Aura--who can see ghosts--is forced to reconsider her relationship with the living and dead in Shade.
-
-
Not the same old paranormal romance
- By Alexis on 01-28-12
By: Jeri Smith-Ready
-
Scarred
- By: Joanne Macgregor
- Narrated by: Kelsey Egan, Richard Lothian
- Length: 6 hrs and 43 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Sloane Munster had the perfect life - until she didn't. Now 17-year-old Sloane is trying to reboot her life after a serious accident left her badly scarred and emotionally traumatized. Starting her senior year at a different school, she recognizes Luke Naughton, a swimmer whom she once had a crush on, in her new class. But when she smiles at him, he glares back with revulsion, and she's sure he's disgusted by her ugly scar.
-
-
The ending is just STUPID
- By Effie on 02-05-19
By: Joanne Macgregor
-
Luna
- By: Julie Anne Peters
- Narrated by: Elizabeth Evans
- Length: 7 hrs and 46 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Regan's brother Liam can't stand the person he is during the day. Like the moon from whom Liam has chosen his female namesake, his true self, Luna, only reveals herself at night. In the secrecy of his basement bedroom Liam transforms himself into the beautiful girl he longs to be, with help from his sister's clothes and makeup. Now, everything is about to change - Luna is preparing to emerge from her cocoon. But are Liam's family and friends ready to welcome Luna into their lives?
-
-
It just doesn't work
- By Dawn on 01-29-19
-
A List of Cages
- By: Robin Roe
- Narrated by: Graham Halstead, Christopher Gebauer
- Length: 8 hrs and 17 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
When Adam Blake lands the best elective ever in his senior year, serving as an aide to the school psychologist, he thinks he's got it made. Sure, it means a lot of sitting around, which isn't easy for a guy with ADHD, but he can't complain, since he gets to spend the period texting all his friends. Then the doctor asks him to track down the troubled freshman who keeps dodging her, and Adam discovers that the boy is Julian - the foster brother he hasn't seen in five years.
-
-
Heart wrenching!
- By Heather Shaver on 02-28-18
By: Robin Roe
-
Drowning Instinct
- By: Ilsa J. Bick
- Narrated by: Kathleen McInerney
- Length: 9 hrs and 47 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
There are stories where the girl gets her prince, and they live happily ever after. (This is not one of those stories.) Jenna Lord's first 16 years were not exactly a fairy tale. Her father is a controlling psycho and her mother is a drunk. She used to count on her older brother - until he shipped off to Iraq. And then, of course, there was the time she almost died in a fire.
-
-
Disturbing, beautiful, awfully komplex and...
- By Rainer on 03-28-12
By: Ilsa J. Bick
-
Dark Room Etiquette
- By: Robin Roe
- Narrated by: Andrew J. Andersen
- Length: 12 hrs and 16 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Sixteen-year-old Sayers Wayte has everything. Popularity, good looks, perfect grades—there's nothing Sayers' family money can't buy. Until he's kidnapped by a man who tells him the privileged life he's been living is based on a lie. Trapped in a windowless room, without knowing why he's been taken or how long the man plans to keep him shut away, Sayers faces a terrifying new reality. To survive, he must forget the world he once knew, and play the part his abductor has created for him.
-
-
Absolutely brilliant
- By Shelley on 01-20-23
By: Robin Roe
-
Shade
- By: Jeri Smith-Ready
- Narrated by: Khristine Hvam
- Length: 8 hrs and 49 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
When her boyfriend dies a most untimely death, Aura--who can see ghosts--is forced to reconsider her relationship with the living and dead in Shade.
-
-
Not the same old paranormal romance
- By Alexis on 01-28-12
By: Jeri Smith-Ready
-
The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer
- Mara Dyer, Book 1
- By: Michelle Hodkin
- Narrated by: Christy Romano
- Length: 9 hrs and 37 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Mara Dyer believes life can't get any stranger than waking up in a hospital with no memory of how she got there. It can. She believes there must be more to the accident she can't remember that killed her friends and left her strangely unharmed. There is. She doesn't believe that after everything she's been through, she can fall in love. She's wrong.
-
-
Not Sure About Mara Dyer
- By C. Betts on 07-30-14
By: Michelle Hodkin
-
Pushing the Limits
- By: Katie McGarry
- Narrated by: MacLeod Andrews, Tara Sands
- Length: 11 hrs
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
No one knows what happened the night Echo Emerson went from popular girl with jock boyfriend to gossiped-about outsider with "freaky" scars on her arms. Even Echo can't remember the whole truth of that horrible night. All she knows is that she wants everything to go back to normal. But when Noah Hutchins, the smoking-hot, girl-using loner in the black leather jacket, explodes into her life with his tough attitude and surprising understanding, Echo's world shifts in ways she could never have imagined. They should have nothing in common. And with the secrets they both keep, being together is pretty much impossible....
-
-
The Tough Stuff.
- By Bee on 09-12-12
By: Katie McGarry
-
Bad Girls Don't Die
- Bad Girls Don't Die Series, Book 1
- By: Katie Alender
- Narrated by: Johanna Parker
- Length: 7 hrs and 21 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
When Alexis's little sister Kasey becomes obsessed with an antique doll, Alexis thinks she is just being her usual weird self. Things get weirder, though, when their house starts changing. Doors open and close by themselves; water boils on the unlit stove; and an unplugged air conditioner blasts cold air.
-
-
Great for Halloween
- By The Owl on 10-03-18
By: Katie Alender
-
Side Effects May Vary
- By: Julie Murphy
- Narrated by: Cassandra Campbell, Kirby Heyborne
- Length: 9 hrs and 16 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
When 16-year-old Alice is diagnosed with leukemia, her prognosis is grim. To maximize the time she does have, she vows to spend her final months righting wrongs - however she sees fit. She convinces her friend Harvey, who she knows has always had feelings for her, to help her with a crazy bucket list that's as much about revenge (humiliating her ex-boyfriend and getting back at her archnemesis) as it is about hope (doing something unexpectedly kind for a stranger).
-
-
Listening Experiences May Vary
- By The Reading Date on 05-18-14
By: Julie Murphy
-
Letters to the Lost
- By: Brigid Kemmerer
- Narrated by: Brittany Pressley, Kirby Heybourne
- Length: 10 hrs and 16 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Juliet Young always writes letters to her mother, a world-traveling photojournalist. Even after her mother's death, she leaves letters at her grave. It's the only way Juliet can cope. Declan Murphy isn't the sort of guy you want to cross. In the midst of his court-ordered community service at the local cemetery, he's trying to escape the demons of his past. When Declan reads a haunting letter left beside a grave, he can't resist writing back. Soon, he's opening up to a perfect stranger, and their connection is immediate.
-
-
Stunning .. just read it, please :)
- By Doha on 04-28-17
By: Brigid Kemmerer
-
Made You Up
- By: Francesca Zappia
- Narrated by: Amanda Ronconi
- Length: 9 hrs and 7 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Reality, it turns out, is often not what you perceive it to be - sometimes, there really is someone out to get you. For fans of Silver Linings Playbook and Liar, this thought-provoking debut tells the story of Alex, a high school senior - and the ultimate unreliable narrator - unable to tell the difference between real life and delusion. Alex fights a daily battle to figure out what is real and what is not.
-
-
A DISGRACE TO AUTHORS AND MENTAL HEALTH EVERYWHERE
- By Amazon Customer on 06-27-18
By: Francesca Zappia
-
The Good Goodbye
- By: Carla Buckley
- Narrated by: Ali Ahn, Suzy Jackson, Eva Kaminsky
- Length: 12 hrs and 4 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Two cousins, Rory and Arden, lie unconscious in a hospital burn unit. The fire, which broke out in their shared college dorm room, killed another student, and the police want answers. Tension between Rory and Arden's parents was already at an all-time high before the fire, owing to a recent financial crisis and the decline of the family business. As the parents huddle anxiously in the waiting room, carefully avoiding the subject of their own unraveling relationships, disturbing truths come to light.
-
-
I could not stop listening.
- By Amy Davis on 05-29-16
By: Carla Buckley
-
The Compound
- By: S. A. Bodeen
- Narrated by: Christopher Lane
- Length: 5 hrs and 41 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Eli and his family have lived in the Compound for six years. The world they knew is gone. Eli's father built the Compound to keep them safe. Now, they can't get out. He won't let them.
-
-
Traumatizing
- By Ana on 09-08-17
By: S. A. Bodeen
-
My Heart and Other Black Holes
- By: Jasmine Warga
- Narrated by: Rebecca Lowman
- Length: 8 hrs and 14 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
-
-
Depressingly Delightful
- By FanB14 on 06-20-15
By: Jasmine Warga
-
The Last Time We Say Goodbye
- By: Cynthia Hand
- Narrated by: Julia Whelan
- Length: 9 hrs and 19 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
The last time Lex was happy, it was before. When she had a family that was whole. A boyfriend she loved. Friends who didn't look at her like she might break down at any moment. Now she's just the girl whose brother killed himself. And it feels like that's all she'll ever be. As Lex starts to put her life back together, she tries to block out what happened the night Tyler died. But there's a secret she hasn't told anyone--a text Tyler sent that could have changed everything.
-
-
Such sweet sorrow
- By Lesaly on 04-26-15
By: Cynthia Hand
-
Let's Talk About Love
- By: Claire Kann
- Narrated by: Adenrele Ojo
- Length: 9 hrs and 5 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Alice had her whole summer planned. Nonstop all-you-can-eat buffets while marathoning her favorite TV shows (best friends totally included) with the smallest dash of adulting - working at the library to pay her share of the rent. The only thing missing from her perfect plan? Her girlfriend (who ended things when Alice confessed she's asexual). Alice is done with dating - no thank you, do not pass go, stick a fork in her, done. But then Alice meets Takumi and she can't stop thinking about him or the rom com-grade romance feels she did not ask for.
-
-
good ya/na story
- By AudioBookHoe on 07-19-18
By: Claire Kann
-
We Told Six Lies
- By: Victoria Scott
- Narrated by: Nick Mondelli
- Length: 8 hrs and 22 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Remember how many lies we told, Molly? It’s enough to make my head spin. You were wild when I met you, and I was mad for you. But then something happened. And now you’re gone. But don’t worry. I’ll find you. I just need to sift through the story of us to get to where you might be. I’ve got places to look and a list of names. The police have a list of names, too. See now? There’s another lie. There is only one person they’re really looking at, Molly. And that’s yours truly.
-
-
great book from audible
- By Paula on 10-16-20
By: Victoria Scott
What listeners say about By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead
Average customer ratingsReviews - Please select the tabs below to change the source of reviews.
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
- Lilly Reed
- 05-20-23
4/5
This story has left a sad pull on my heart. A young girl with a death plan and a boy who is basically counting down his days. one yerns what the other has, one is determined to figure the other out. It made me happy seeing a character who even when rejected so many times, from friendship, romance, even a simple conversation. Knew she was suicidal and wanted to open her up. The ending of course will piss those off, cliffhangers suck. But it leaves the imagination open. Who died first is what will be on my mind. I liked the story, the stuggle, and hearing others on the forum. It deviates me, makes me feel greatful for the problems I have and struggle with. hearing someones story, knowing them, putting myself in their shoes, gives me my own answers.
Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.
You voted on this review!
You reported this review!
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
- Pink Amy
- 04-04-21
Pitch perfect
Grade: A+
Daelyn, depressed and damaged after years of bullying and several attempts to end her life, finds a website for suicidal people to plan and execute their demise. She's unable to speak and barely communicates with her parents, doctors and classmates. She meets a talkative, quirky boy, determined to break through her stoic exterior, to be her friend. But all Daelyn can't allow herself to get close, not when she's supposed to be disengaging from people to make her suicide easier.
BY THE TIME YOU READ THIS, I'LL BE DEAD is heartbreaking, breathtaking look inside the mind of an extremely depressed teenage girl. Daelyn's parents love her, but they're ineffectual when relating and understanding her pain from the time she was a young child. She probably should have been in therapy from a very young age, but her parents didn't realize the depth of her self-loathing and inner torment. Daelyn was never honest about the depth of the bullying she experienced. A perfectly imperfect storm.
Daelyn was so full of despair, she was unable to see the impact of her often cold behavior on her parents and those who tried to befriend her. I found her easy to root for, even though she stopped rooting for herself. I wanted to take her back in time and urge her to tell on the bullies and abusers, to show her she was worth more than the way others treated her.
Santana proved to be the Yang to Daelyn's Yin. He embraced life with gusto and vigor and wouldn't let go of his desire to befriend her. His approach was so genteel and nonthreatening that she wasn't scared away.
Some readers may find BY THE TIME YOU READ THIS, I'LL BE DEAD depressing and dark, but Julie Ann Peters did a great job tempering Daelyn's despair with a subtly sarcastic, engaging voice. As I reader I had the hope Daelyn lacked. Just like life, there are no easy answers in this novel. Peters avoids the clichéd ending of easy answers, sunshine and rainbows.
THEMES: depression, suicide, bullying, family
BY THE TIME YOU READ THIS, I'LL BE DEAD is an unconventional story of a teen contemplating suicide.
ETA: The audiobook was extremely well-narrated.
Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.
You voted on this review!
You reported this review!
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
- Starr
- 07-05-18
Raw, unnerving and funny
If you’ve even dealt with bullying or sexual assault, if you’ve ever been fat, teased, taunted or insulted this book will make you hurt. It will rip open old wounds and make you ant to scream. If you have children, it will make you want to grab them, wrap them in bubble wrap and lock them indoors. I think parent and young children alike should read this, parents so they’re not so oblivious and children so they understand to speak up, defend themselves and that it doesn’t last forever and that school is the lease important part of your life socially. And that it does get better. The needing however might piss some people off. It an unresolved cliff hanger. Not my favorite type of book.
Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.
You voted on this review!
You reported this review!
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
- Tara
- 09-01-19
a lot of build up to nothing
The story was good until the last 3 chapters when I realized I just wasted my time because it felt incomplete, it felt like the author got tired of writing at the end and just gave up on the story.
.
Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.
You voted on this review!
You reported this review!
1 person found this helpful
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
- Simply.mrs.z
- 03-24-24
Nope!
Trigger warning, spoilers, blah blah blah.
This book was a complete waste of time and materials. The highlight is that it was a short read.
15-year old Daelyn tried and failed to take her life twice, having been bullied for her weight as a child. Labeling herself a failure, she's determined to end things versus considering the alternative.
Following her inner monologue, as her last attempt wrought havoc on her speaking ability, Daelyn is set on disconnection; going through the motions at home and shirking genuine human connection. (Deep depression is crippling, I get it. This did not feel/ or read like deep depression.)
Daelyn stumbles on a website chock full of forums, chats, tips, and tricks for suix!de. She proceeds to count down the days, faking it all the while. When her "date of determination" arrives, we're left with an open ending. Did she? Or did she change her mind?
The intended audience is 10-14-year olds with scientifically underdeveloped brains. The main character is flat and painfully sarcastic. She's medicated and monitored by loving parents, but I found it awkward and unbelievable when her parents were allowed to be present and speak for her in a therapy session. That felt irresponsible.
Daelyn tells clipped stories about her experiences and abuse, including fat camp. She managed to lose weight but is still uninspired to make further changes to improve her life.
The website thing didn't shock, but did feel absurd. If one is so determined, why let a website dictate your choice and process? It began to feel like ideation. I know 13 Reasons Why got criticized for the same thing, but at least its main character elicited understanding and compassion in telling her story. This book did not do that with no detectable moral, lesson or redemption.
Lastly, I don’t know if the audible reader did any favors for the main character. There was nearly a chipper undertone.
I would not recommend this book.
I want a refund.
Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.
You voted on this review!
You reported this review!