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Zach is 18. He is bright and articulate. He's also an alcoholic and in rehab instead of high school, but he doesn't remember how he got there. He's not sure he wants to remember. Something bad must have happened. Something really, really bad. Remembering sucks and being alive—well, what's up with that?
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Mr. Benjamin Alire Saenz wrote ✨ HAPPINESS✨ on my heart when he created this lovely, dark, heartbreaking, life altering, never give up on yourself work of art!The inside look into those who suffer so many different types of depressions either biologically or from a traumatic event that took place in their life is not only heartbreaking, but scary. And how lucky are we to live in a country where asking for help shows the true strength of someone who wants to better themselves physically and mentally?
Raphael was my hero.
Adam, my Angel.
And Zack, my quiet heart.
Best moment: Meeting Raphael again. 💖
MacLeod Andrews really stuns me out! 😍
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Remarkable
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beautiful book
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A book you’ll never forget
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Almost perfect
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A wonderful, wonderful book
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Great performance as well.
*Ugly Cry*
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This is my favorite book!
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Incredible. Amazing.
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