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Thriving After Suicide Attempt
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Kay Whiting Harrison
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Lex L. Harrison
About this listen
Kay Whiting Harrison shares her personal journey through the twists, turns, triumphs, and tragedies of her life as she secretly struggles with a mental illness. She copes with a severe and terminal disability of one child, a life-threatening illness with another, financial pressures, and other life challenges while trying to keep the demons of depression and anxiety at bay and hidden from the rest of the world.
Despite being a competent wife, mother, businesswoman, and community leader, mounting tensions and mental illness eventually led her to try to take her own life. She shares her initial disappointment at surviving. As a perfectionist, surviving was not in her plan.
Yet, not only did she survive, much to her own surprise, she transformed from being ashamed and hiding her struggles to becoming an outspoken advocate, sharing her personal experiences with others to let them know that not only is it okay to talk about your mental health but it’s essential—and in some cases, lifesaving!
This memoir/biography is raw, real, and vulnerable. It takes you on a journey that is both relatable and riveting as it describes the human problems many of us face and how coping with them can be exacerbated when besieged by a mental illness.
This story will hold your attention, capture your heart, and inspire you to have hope that healing and recovery are not only possible but inevitable—once the courage is summoned to open up and seek support and treatment.
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- Shianne Whipple
- 09-12-22
Amazing, Heartfelt and So Real
Such a heart breaking and soul touching story. Thank you for sharing your struggles and strengths, it will for sure touch the hearts of anyone who listens.
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- Elsa Osborne
- 11-20-22
Beautifully written, healing, and a good read.
This book is so freaking amazing! And so is Kay, the author. I sat down to listen to the first chapter of the book and ended up getting all the way through in two days. It was so healing for me to read. It helped me feel all my feelings. I resonate with it. Especially good read for anyone with high functioning depression.
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- Les Maynard
- 09-25-22
Best book I have listened to in a long while
loved it. very well put together. once I started I couldn't put it down.
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- R ellis
- 09-15-22
Powerful and Helpful
A unique and beautiful perspective from the author's perspective of her suicide attempt and suffering from depression and anxiety. Also very important perspective shared from her spouse on the events. I love how Kay turned such deep emotional pain into healing and empowerment a she continues to help others on their healing journey through recovery. Ao many feel so alone and Kay's vulnerable story can help those suffering from mental illness as well as those supporting a loved one going through similar feelings or experiences. I love how the author explains her thought process, through her past traumas and into the decision to end her life. Highly recommended.
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