
Out of the Pantry
A Disordered Eating Journey
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Ronni Robinson
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Ronni Robinson
About this listen
Preteen Ronni is a seemingly normal girl growing up in the suburbs, until the day her mom hides cookies. Soon after, Ronni has an unexplainable compulsion to eat more and more and more junk.
In secret and shame, she overeats and binges through her tween years, high school, college, an abusive first marriage, and even a loving second marriage. Over 30 years, she steals food, eats food off of others' plates, and scavenges food out of the trash, until one night, once again stuffed after a binge, on TV, she hears the words “compulsive overeater”.
She searches and she learns she has an eating disorder, a mental illness, a disease.
Armed with this knowledge, she attacks her compulsion at full throttle. She goes to therapy and Overeaters Anonymous meetings, reads books, and namelessly blogs in an attempt to gain power over food.
In this brutally honest glimpse into the trials, pervasive thoughts, and heartbreak of a compulsive overeater, discover how Ronni gains the courage and strength to live her life without being a slave to food.
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