
Reckless Grace
A Mother's Crash Course in Mental Illness
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Leslie Langsdon
About this listen
Fourteen-year-old Rachel guards a collection of secrets for 10 years, journaling to vent her terror and loneliness.
Following Rachel’s fatal overdose years later, her mother, Carolyn DiPasquale, stumbles upon her daughter’s diaries. Shattered, she searches for answers, retracing her steps to figure out how parents and doctors missed three major mental illnesses.
What the single working mother recalls is a far cry from what happens, as dramatically revealed in tandem chapters gleaned from Rachel’s journals.
While the mother sprints from task to task, the daughter details the baffling emergence and frightening progression of bulimia, diabulimia, borderline personality disorder, her eventual substance abuse, and heart-wrenching reasons for not seeking help.
Despite her loss, DiPasquale hopes her story lights a path for victims of mental illness while awakening all listeners.
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