
Stumbling Toward Eternity
Losing & Finding Ourselves in the Cross of Jesus
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Live with freedom and abundance as you freshly discover the cross of Jesus through the powerful stories and biblical insights of influential preacher and musician Josh White.
“[A] vision of gospel hope.”—John Mark Comer
Desperation reverberates at the very center of our anxious age. Despite our fiercest efforts, we never seem to find the meaning, depth, and beauty we long for. Where do we turn? There are so many voices promising happiness and endless ladders for us to climb toward a wholeness we can’t seem to reach.
Yet what if what we are looking for has already come down to us?
In Stumbling Toward Eternity, writer, pastor, and recording artist Josh White offers confessional stories and theological insights as he interprets the pain of his own past, the complicated “mixture” of the present, and the beautiful uncertainty of the future through the lens of grace. Using crisp and honest prose, he reveals why the most familiar symbol of Christianity—the cross of Jesus—is also the most misunderstood. He shows us why the goal of our desperate existence is not arriving at perfection or success but knowing the crucified Christ.
The cross is not something to climb toward status. It is something to die on. It is where illusions die and wounds are healed. The cross is where the crucified God speaks over us words that bring freedom. Freedom from futility. Freedom to live with hope. Freedom to truly love.
When we lose and find ourselves in the cross of Jesus, we discover that even the most dissonant notes of life can be redeemed in His song, even as we stumble toward eternity.
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Critic reviews
“Josh White has done the hard work of facing his troubled past and finding the thread of grace that has long made beauty from ashes. Many will resonate with the pain of his upbringing; even more will come alive at his vision of gospel hope.” —John Mark Comer, author of The Ruthless Elimination of Hurry
“Stumbling Toward Eternity is a bit like its author: intrepid and infectious, openhearted yet unflinching, and singularly focused on the grace of God for nontheoretical sinners. . . . This book is redemption made plain, essential reading for anyone in need of real hope. And the footnotes alone are worth the price of admission!” —David Zahl, founder of Mockingbird Ministries and author of Low Anthropology
“These pages hold deep theology, rich memoir, and a call to enter the life you were made for with God. Josh’s vulnerability with his heartbreak and shortcomings will give you the courage to face your own head-on and discover there the presence of the crucified King.” —Joshua Ryan Butler, lead pastor of Redemption Tempe, author of Beautiful Union
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- Nicole
- 08-15-23
Great listen
The urge to be in community is great for all of us who desire to isolate.
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- Joshua
- 11-30-23
So good
Joshua White takes the time and the emotions of Jesus and the cross. It impacts every part of who we are as humans.
Good job and thank you Joshua
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- Anonymous User
- 07-15-23
Fantastic story teller
We’ll done josh! As a counselor this book will be recommended weekly to my clients and friends.
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- Tamara
- 09-22-23
Such a good book
Thought provoking,
Moving and based on scripture. I read this book bc I had listened to Josh’s sermons. He’s real and relatable
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- Jill Stachofsky
- 06-25-23
Love it
I love his perspective and how deep he thinks. Also, he has a very nice voice. Great book
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- Anonymous User
- 01-22-24
The cross is not something to climb It is something to die on.
So good! Insightful and then heart wrenching at times.
“I really like your boots grandpa”.
The way he weaved his personal story into the story of the cross was really well done. I am thankful for the way the same truths always found in the gospel struck my heart in a new way.
Highly recommend the listen!
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