
The Audacity to Live
How I Lost and Manage the Loss of Four Children
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Tawana Custodio
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Tawana Custodio
About this listen
Tawana Custodio takes the time to share the intimate details of the day she actually lost her children. Reliving these moments with her can take you on an emotional roller coaster. Through her words, you'll experience the highs and lows of pregnancy, miscarraige, stillbirth, as well as the loss of two children in one night. Losing one child is enough to send any parent into a deep depression; she lost four. Instead, she tells how she made her way through to the other side and so can you. She motivates you to overcome any obstacle by being an active participant in your healing process - accepting that you cannot change the past, but can decide what you're going to choose to think about it. She challenges you to speak up about your grief and stop pretending to be okay. Tell the truth about how you're feeling and seek help. Be creative until you find the method that works for you.
You will never be who you were before your life-changing tragedy, and you don't have to be. Evolve into the newer version of yourself that has learned to cope and control sometimes overwhelming negative thoughts, turning them into positive energy you can use to fuel your passion.
©2018 Tawana Custodio (P)2019 Tawana CustodioListeners also enjoyed...
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- Anonymous User
- 09-30-20
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After losing my twins due to preterm labor,, I spend days seaeching for books I can read to help ease my pain of losing them. I am glad I took the time to read her book and hear her story. Thank you!
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