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Felicity Hart
About this listen
Victoria Parker knew her dad's behavior toward her was a little unusual, but she convinced herself everything was fine - until she found herself locked out of the house at 3:00 a.m., surrounded by flashing police lights.
Now, dumped into a crowded, chaotic foster home, Victoria has to tiptoe around her domineering foster mother, get through senior year at a new school, and somehow salvage her college dreams...all while keeping her past hidden.
But some secrets won't stay buried - especially when unwanted memories make Victoria freeze up at random moments and nightmares disrupt her sleep. Even worse, she can't stop worrying about her stepsister Sarah, left behind with her father. All she wants is to move forward, but how do you focus on the future when the past won't leave you alone?
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- Dylan Carr
- 08-15-21
Excellent
Nikki Barthelmess does a masterful job drawing readers into Victoria’s life in foster care (& mental struggles dealing with guilt, shame, trust, & beyond). Nikki brings to light things that are too often suppressed and offers hope to others by sharing this story. “The Quiet You Carry,” should make all of us realize that everyone has a silent burden & finding community (sharing your story) can begin a healing process. Well done Nikki Barthelmess!
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- Christopher Andrade
- 10-26-22
Harrowing, intense, entertaining, important!
A riveting coming of age tale told from a critically unique perspective. This is hard to put down and falls into the "absolutely must read" category!
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