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Edward Thornton
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Jay M Londo
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To Be Alive but Not All There is a physiological, sexual, and action packed sort of thriller, that will keep you on the edge of your seat.
Follow a young man who no longer wants to live, and just when he is about to give up on life, a dark mysterious woman drops into his life so unexpectedly. Shaking his life upside down. After the sexual tension comes to a head between these two, the journey that these two will inversely embark on will truly end up proving to be a dangerous journey that neither of them may survive from. When they accidently get caught by a dangerous set of individuals, and it’s what happens to the both of them next that will truly test their will to live.
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