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Darcy Stark
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D.H. Starr
About this listen
Derek Thompson is a senior and a wrestler, and has a secret. He’s gay.
Scott Thayer is a new student who’s just moved to Cambridge, Massachusetts from Iowa. On the first day of school Derek and Scott meet, and their lives change in an instant.
As Derek and Scott discover the things they have in common, they enter into one of the closest, most loving relationships either of them has ever experienced. When unexpected circumstances threaten to tear them apart, they both have to make a decision.
Do they protect their secret and separate? Or fight for what they want...each other.
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