
You're Not Special
A (Sort-of) Memoir
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Meghan Rienks
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Meghan Rienks
About this listen
In her first-ever (sort of) memoir, the beloved actor and YouTube sensation gets personal about everything from mental health to drunken debaucheries with this “brave, behind-the-webcam look at self-discovery” (Kirkus Reviews).
As an only child raised in a town of less than 8,000 people and without a Starbucks in sight, Meghan Rienks has always been pretty good at entertaining herself. Then one day — cue the dramatic voiceover — her life changed forever.
In 2010, Meghan was diagnosed with mononucleosis. Mono is basically just a really bad case of the flu, right? Wrong. To a party-crazed 16-year-old, mono is social suicide. More than anything, it’s just plain boring. So, Meghan opened up her MacBook, used the webcam for something other than a bad Andy Warhol-style photobooth session, and recorded her first YouTube video. Since then, Meghan has shared the ups and downs of her life with the internet, documenting her teenage years for the whole world to see.
Now that she’s (mostly) through her awkward stage, Meghan’s here to tell you that it gets better. You’re not alone in the thoughts you think. Sometimes a bad hair day feels worse than a punch in the gut and asking a boy out seems about as difficult as achieving that perfect dewy glow. But despite what you’ve been told, your problems are not unique, and somebody else has felt the way you feel right at this very moment.
You’re not special. But you’re also not alone on the bumpy road to adulthood.
©2019 Meghan Rienks (P)2019 Simon & SchusterListeners also enjoyed...
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- Gabriela
- 05-18-20
You’re incredible
What an incredible way of sharing your story. I’m in awe of your strength and courage through all your years and writing all of this.
Congrats on an exceptional book!
P.s. it made me cry multiple times
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- Anonymous User
- 05-07-20
Incredible heartwarming book
Meghan is so fun and amazing to listen to, even when her story broke my heart. Everyone needs to listen/read this book. You’re welcome
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- Connor Beaulieu
- 05-26-20
Always a fan
Been a fan and have watched Meghan on YouTube for about ~8 years. Love her book especially the chapter on her family. Easy to follow, some references may be hard to understand if you were not born in the 90s. Over all, easy listen and Im happy she’s in such a good spot now!
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- Emma Gonzalez
- 06-01-20
Thank you Meghan, I don't feel alone anymore.
I sped through this book, it was impossible for me not to listen. I loved hearing Meghan's voice as she read these stories, and even hearing her getting choked up near the end make me feel so much closer to the story. thank you Meghan for writing this book, it's good to know I'm not special.
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- Rebecca Blackwell
- 05-21-20
NOTHING SHORT OF FUCKING AMAZING!!
This book was INCREDIBLE Meghan! Seriously! As a 26 year old who basically feels like we grew up together, it’s so cool too see how much you’ve grown and see the person you are now! You’re a BADASS! I’m so glad that this book exists and I can’t wait for my future children to read it honestly haha. If I had something like this when I was a teen it could’ve saved me a lot of time and dumbass boys hahah. Thank you for sharing your story!
Ps... the more I read this, the more I feel like we’d be great friends, so like hit me up! Haha
Rebecca
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- Anonymous User
- 07-22-20
Blunt and True
It's life. it's her life. It's everyone's life. It's not better than what I imagined, it's just what I imagined. Just life happening. The straightforwardness is incredibly engaging. I literally finished the audiobook super fast without even speeding it. I really need to buy the physical copy when I can.
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- 07-01-20
Wonderful book for a woman in their early twenties
This book was so great! I’m 21, and trying to navigate my way through life. Meghan is very relatable and wrote about things that pertain to me deeply. Thank you for the advice & ability to hear your stories Meghan!
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- Alanis Font
- 05-16-20
Incredibly uplifting
A brutally honest and uplifting book about growing up and finding your way in life in spite of all hardships. Very self aware, no sugar coating and overall great storytelling. Definitely worth the wait.
Meghan, I’ve watched your content for years and I want to thank you for sharing your experience and advice. I really enjoyed this book. ♥️
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- kyle & alex m.
- 10-16-20
10/10
This is truly such and amazing book and story. All women and girls should read this. These things need to be said and they need to be heard. So grateful to Meghan for writing this and you should be so proud of yourself for doing it.
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- Genevieve
- 05-13-20
Thank You Meghan.
Incredible. Raw. You put it all out there, and you did it elegantly. I loved the entire thing, and it made me feel every emotion across the board. You are so brave.
P.s. Mats did fantastic.
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