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The True Story of Two Friends & One Diagnosis
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Narrated by:
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Mara Altman
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Kat Alexander
About this listen
In Episodes, lifelong best friends Kat and Mara take listeners on an unfiltered journey through friendship, mental illness, and survival. Kat, a successful professional, is preparing for marriage and motherhood. On her fourth round of IVF, it happened—a frantic call to Mara. Mara comes over to find Kat, her friend of 25 years—the one who'd always been levelheaded, hilarious, and over-the-top thoughtful—trying to jump through a window.
The unexpected Bipolar diagnosis sends Kat’s life into a tailspin, leading to frantic 9-1-1 calls, cycling in and out of hospitals, crashed cars, emptied bank accounts, and, eventually, a desperate search and rescue mission in Mexico, where Kat goes missing.
Told through their own voices, Episodes captures the profound intimacy and tension of a friendship tested by crisis. Using real-time audio to immerse listeners in their heart-wrenching saga, Episodes takes us deep into the taboo of losing one's mind and raises universal questions about the boundaries of friendship. In spite of the chaos, Kat and Mara are here to tell their story, together—a testament that not only is healing possible, but that it’s not meant to be done alone.
©2024 Mara Altman and Kat Alexander (P)2024 Audible Originals, LLC.
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I can easily say that this was the most amazing thing I have ever listened to.
I understand and relate to everything that you have shared. More than I’d like to say. I share the same diagnosis, only I have the sister- bipolar 2. Deep, unrelenting severe depression. My suicide attempts started when I was 12. I am now 60 and The constant desire to be gone. To never have existed. To not take up space still cloaks me in its veil.
All I want, all I’ve ever wanted is to be able to breathe. to be safe. to be enough. as I am. Also, I dream of being happy. Some day. Maybe someday.
I am so blown away by your friendship, commitment and loyalty to each other. it is so beautiful and so rare in this land of mental illness where friends are lost, family is distant, and the truth is rarely spoken.
I think it was Ernest Hemingway who said The world breaks everyone and afterwards many are strong at the broken places. That is you two.
I have 8 billion other words in my head that I would like to write about everything that you said. How it moved me, how it’s changed me, how it has inspired me.
how it has given me hope.
Thank you so much for having the courage to write your story. To perform it. You did a beautiful job.
You are resplendent 💛
Resplendent. ✨⭐️🌟💫✨💛
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Easy to listen to - good speaking voices
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Amazing friendship and crazy real story
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Breathtakingly moving work about friendship and love
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incredible, moving, humbling
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Everyone should read this!
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a must read
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Amazing story of true friendship!
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Loved it
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