How Now, Butterfly?
A Memoir of Murder, Survival, and Transformation
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Losing a young daughter to murder is the worst nightmare that a mother could possibly imagine, but what if the killer was her son? Charity Lee was thrust into this unimaginable situation when her 13-year-old son, Paris, murdered her beloved four-year-old daughter, Ella.
Charity goes through intense grief at the loss of her daughter, while at the same time trying to understand why her son would have done something as horrific as this, and how she could have missed the signs that Paris was a true psychopath.
While barely holding herself together throughout her intense grief, Charity is still a mother and feels a need to advocate for her son to receive appropriate treatment while incarcerated, while at the same time trying to ensure he stays in prison so he can never hurt someone again. Charity still loves her son and craves a connection with him despite all he has done. Because of her experiences, she rebuilds her life and starts a non-profit to help other families of victims, as well as offenders.
This book is a meditation on grief, loss, and forgiveness unlike any other. It's also an inspirational story of a true survivor. Well-written and haunting How Now, Butterfly? is a book that no listener will soon forget.
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Odd(ly) Enough
- Standing Out When the World Begs You to Fit In
- By: Carolanne Miljavac
- Narrated by: Carolanne Miljavac
- Length: 4 hrs and 58 mins
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Humorous. Authentic. Relatable. That's Carolanne Miljavac in a nutshell. And those qualities are just what her nearly half a million social media followers adore about her. Her Odd(ly) Enough is a message that your heart needs to hear: It's time to embrace the "you" God made you to be. Tune out the naysayers of the world, and jump into his loving arms. He'll walk alongside you as you passionately pursue your God-given purpose.
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Absolutely Amazing and Eye Opening!
- By Anonymous User on 11-04-18
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Peace from Broken Pieces
- How to Get Through What You're Going Through
- By: Iyanla Vanzant
- Narrated by: Iyanla Vanzant
- Length: 11 hrs and 55 mins
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New York Times best-selling author Iyanla Vanzant recounts the last decade of her life and the spiritual lessons learned—from the price of success during her meteoric rise as a TV celebrity on Oprah, the Iyanla TV show (produced by Barbara Walters), to the dissolution of her marriage and her daughter's 15 months of illness and death on Christmas day.
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Iyanla is Inspirational! A GREAT LISTEN!!!
- By Theresa on 12-04-11
By: Iyanla Vanzant
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Psychic Children
- Revealing the Intuitive Gifts and Hidden Abilities of Boys and Girls
- By: Sylvia Browne, Lindsay Harrison
- Narrated by: Jeanie Hackett
- Length: 4 hrs and 49 mins
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Browne believes all children are gifted. These gifts have merely been either stifled or exploited by society over the centuries. The gifts usually appear at very tender ages; they are, in Browne's view, special blessings from God. The respected New York Times best-selling psychic shares profound stories of how children can be channels to the Other Side.
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This is not a manual
- By 1charlietee on 01-23-11
By: Sylvia Browne, and others
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Secrets of the Monarch
- What the Dead Can Teach Us About Living a Better Life
- By: Allison DuBois
- Narrated by: Renee Raudman
- Length: 5 hrs and 24 mins
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If you want to understand life, you must understand death. In Secrets of the Monarch, DuBois shows how communicating with the dead has taught her important lessons about life and how listeners can apply those principles to their own lives.
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Secrets of the Monarch
- By kim on 07-28-11
By: Allison DuBois
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- Anonymous User
- 02-23-24
Brutal honesty!
I felt that the honesty on here was refreshing. No sugar coating here. I feel for what this mother has gone through and I can understand how hard it is to have unconditional love for a child that has done harm. As I am a mother of 4 children. With that being said. I was really engaged through the whole book and, thought it was well written.
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- Starla M.
- 04-08-21
Charity Lee is the Real Deal
I hadn’t heard about this case before, but I saw Charity being interviewed on YouTube and I decided to give this book a chance. It’s a hard book to listen to in that it speaks in gut wrenching, heartbreakingly raw details about the cold, cruel murder of a four year old child. Charity is, unfortunately the mother of the victim as well as the mother of the killer, which makes things even more horrific for her. Based on her journals this book gives a realistic look at one woman’s struggles to take something unimaginably horrible and make it somehow meaningful. I’m glad I read it.
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- Harley Quiinn
- 08-18-21
no mother should have to go through this
very well written book, the pain she has to go through is unspeakable I would say this is a must read/hear
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- saaz
- 04-22-21
Amazing!
I couldn't stop listening to this book from beginning to end. Absolutely inspiring! My heart aches for Charity!
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- Stalkjessicaw
- 10-18-23
Amazing, heartbreaking, and impossible to put down
How could a Mother come to terms with grieving the loss of her young daughters life while also grieving the loss of young sons life.. her daughters murderer. Only a Mother that has had to come to those terms can answer that. Charity exposes raw emotions and truths as she tries to make sense of why her son murdered his sister. You can feel her every emotion deep in your being. The questions that have no real answers, only why? The heartbreak is enormous as she discusses Bella's death and how she had to cope to get herself through it... wondering if she is betraying Bella if she continues to love and support Paris. The internal conflict she battled and overcame in her efforts to heal, transform and go on to help other people is simply amazing. She advocates for her sons mental health and has maintained support and a relationship with him despite knowing what he has done was mean't to hurt her. She speaks openly of her fear of Paris now and forever. Charity also now has a beautiful son she named Phoenix. She also talks openly about Paris' relationship with him. A woman, a daughter and a Mother who shows exceptional courage and faith during the most horrific event of her life. Purple Butterflies.. fly free and in peace sweet baby! Thank you for sharing your journey Charity.. you are a true inspiration!
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- Kathleen Mccarter Cohen
- 06-29-21
A mother's strength and love prevail
I loved it! Thank you Charity Lee for this memoir and creating the ELLA foundation.
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- Ashley Flynn
- 05-13-23
Terrible Book
Absolutely terrible book. I cannot believe I got through the entire miserable experience of listening to it. All Charity does is idealize her daughter and place herself in the victim role, when in reality, she created a monster (Paris). She was a neglectful mother to Paris and created all that hate in him. The fact that she had had another son is awful- all she will do with him is create another monster. Charity and Kyla are truly evil and toxic. If you want to hear a monster throw a pity party for herself, this is the book for you. If not, don’t bother wasting your time on this one.
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- Mikey Gee
- 03-17-24
Lessons to be Learned
Saw the Doc, thought there would be more insight gained by her book… not in the way she hoped. I feel bad saying it’s self-centered, whiny, and flagrantly narcissistic because it’s about an awake nightmare and written from her “journal entries”. But I keep reminding myself that she approved the content presumably because it was how she wanted to be viewed. Within the hours of repetition are very clear patterns of instability and codependency. I’m sifting out some insights but they are not what I anticipated. And there is a lot of ego to sift through… Ultimately, I feel like I gave up $17 to the compulsive manipulation of the Bennett family.
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- Bronwyn
- 08-28-24
Not worth the time
I wanted to get something out of this book, but it’s just so, so bad. I have sympathy for the situation and grief, but my god, it’s just hours of lamenting the same sentiments over and over.
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- Honest Opinions
- 05-04-23
Very disappointing
I will start by saying that I am truly sorry that this family went through this horribly traumatic event. I feel like I need to write this, as my dissatisfaction with the book may seem like I am lacking compassion.
However interesting the events of this story may be, so far, the book is one long journal entry of which Charity idealizes the child lost, demonizes the child incarcerated, and victimizes herself. I’m maybe 1/3 through the book and I’m not sure if I will be able to finish it.
There is little information about either child as individual humans, but lots of how her son did this just to hurt Charity. She seems utterly uninterested in what her role could have been. So far she hasn’t acknowledged how she favored her daughter, once her son was born, how it might have been a mistake to take him out of treatment (taken from the documentary), or talk about behavior prior to the murder…other than the frog incident.
And quite honestly, I can’t for the life of me, understand what made this woman think that her readers would care to know about her drunken, sexual escapades with a 22 year old. I want to know how the genius child convinced the babysitter to go home. I want to know if he only had behavioral problems after his sister was born. I’m curious about her alcoholic ex husband’s interactions with Paris. I want to know what her son’s truth is. Charity complained that all her son did was think about himself…as a 13 year old boy, that’s is partly normal (definitely not excusing his behavior). However, this whole book is completely focused on Charity and her belief that this was done to her. She’s 34.
Finally, her journal entries seem inauthentic and at times untrue. The experience she describes about going out for the first time…her so appropriate response, and “integrity” in place.
She explains that she’s medicated, not eating, not sleeping, going to the funeral home to lay with her daughter’s body, yet she has the mental capacity to think about her integrity? It doesn’t make sense.
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