
Surpassing Certainty
What My Twenties Taught Me
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Janet Mock
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Janet Mock
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Riveting, rousing, and utterly real, Surpassing Certainty is a portrait of a young woman searching for her purpose and place in the world - without a road map to guide her.
The journey begins a few months before her 20th birthday. Janet Mock is adjusting to her days as a first-generation college student at the University of Hawaii and her nights as a dancer at a strip club. Finally content in her body, she vacillates between flaunting and concealing herself as she navigates dating and disclosure, sex and intimacy, and, most important, letting herself be truly seen.
Under the neon lights of Club Nu, Janet meets Troy, a yeoman stationed at Pearl Harbor naval base, who becomes her first. The pleasures and perils of their union serve as a backdrop for Janet's progression through her early 20s with all the universal growing pains - falling in and out of love, living away from home, and figuring out what she wants to do with her life.
Despite her disadvantages, fueled by her dreams and inimitable drive, Janet makes her way through New York City while holding her truth close. She builds a career in the highly competitive world of magazine publishing - within the unique context of being trans, a woman, and a person of color.
Long before she became one of the world's most respected media figures and lauded leaders for equality and justice, Janet was a girl taking the time she needed to just be - to learn how to advocate for herself before becoming an advocate for others. As you witness Janet's slow-won success and painful failures, Surpassing Certainty will embolden you, shift the way you see others, and affirm your journey in search of self.
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- Jerry St. Louis
- 06-11-19
Love Her!
I absolutely love Janet Mock, and the fact that she is is the narrator makes you feel like you share her experiences first hand. Now I just have to wait until she writes a new book 😩
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- Loren
- 11-18-19
A Must Read
Beautifully written and read. Janet Mock is a force and her story will help you understand your own.
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- Abbie Jo de Castro
- 10-14-17
I could listen to her voice for days
Janet's voice is like velvet. And the way she tells her story of her growth and finding herself and her audience is powerful and moving and also beautiful in how easily relatable it is.
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- Lindz
- 08-10-18
Janet's Voice Makes Everything Better
She's an incredible writer, and I can't imagine hearing it read by anyone else. Honestly, just listen. You'll see what I mean.
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- cecil carter
- 11-02-21
love it
good read. alot of self reflective moments while listening to her story. Great job on representation.
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- Zoey
- 06-14-23
I love this
I love this I have the book and her first book which I read about 3 times but hearing her story moves me as young trans women of
Color her first book came out in a time when I needed it the most it show me self love that I can be worthy of love career and self acceptance the second one hearing Janet story in her voice give me the tools to self heal from pass traumas and to allow my self to open to all the blessings around me thank you for this Janet my Shero🙏🏽🥰 the voice I needed to hear.
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- Shaina
- 06-29-17
Absolutely adore!
I recommend this book to any and every twenty-something! I plan to read (and love) this over and over again.
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- Ember Blooms
- 07-10-17
Overwhelmingly endearing
As a young trans woman at the end of her twenties , in the mindst of navigating men in my life, and feeling isolated and lonely, This book provided a space of limitless comfort and understanding. Hearing Janet read her book about her own life just a while ago felt incredibly autenthic and endearing , to hear all the feelings in between her words and in her nunciation, yet collected and professionally read. She continues to thrive and bring warmth to my tears. Thank you Janet for sharing and for doing the work and inspiring others to strive
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- Amazon Customer
- 12-22-17
Wonderful Read
I'm ready for a 3ed book, this one was better then Refining Realness!! I am in awe of how Janet Mock expresses herself, this book was a serious page turner.
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- Anonymous User
- 06-28-17
Incredibly real and inspiring
Janet's vulnerability pulls you in from the start. Her incredible story about finding her way through her twenties, is a story everyone can relate to. I could not stop listening.
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