
The Dark Days of 2020
A Memoir of Resilience and Perseverance
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Nicholas Pitcher
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Abicar Gonzalez
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The end of the world, doomsday, apocalypse—these would all be fitting descriptions of the year 2020. From the untimely death of a sports icon to the most feared disease of the century and the breaking point of racism in our country, a young man has his world turned upside down.
Mental health is at a breaking point as depression and anxiety are met head-on. A marriage is on the rocks as challenges and obstacles continue to pile on. There’s plenty of opportunity to simply give up and fail his family. A very deep look in the mirror and the support of a wife that refuses to let him fall are the key pillars to overcoming the onslaught of challenges he faces in the most historic year of his lifetime.
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