
This Particular Happiness
A Childless Love Story
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Jackie Shannon Hollis
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As a farm girl in eastern Oregon, feeding bottles to bummer lambs and babysitting her little sister, Jackie Shannon Hollis expected to become a mother someday. After a series of failed relationships, she met Bill, the man she wanted to spend her life with. But he was a man who never wanted children. Saying I do meant saying I don't to a rite of passage her body had prepared her for since puberty.
Told in short nonlinear chapters, This Particular Happiness explores the fracturing of female identity as Shannon Hollis questions her childless decision, navigates her roles as daughter and wife and sister and friend, and ultimately learns to listen to her own heart. This debut memoir is about what we keep and what we abandon to make space in our lives for love.
©2019 Jackie Shannon Hollis. Mrs. Stevens Hears the Mermaids Singing by May Sarton (Copyright © May Sarton) reproduced by permission of A.M. Heath & Co Ltd. (P)2019 Blackstone PublishingListeners also enjoyed...
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Love for my Aunt Jackie
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The timeline is non linear, so we go back and forth on Jackie's life. It's a nice read, and by the end I feel I'm gonna miss a new friend.
a very nice memoir
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loved the book!
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I couldn’t help but think this woman gave up on something very important to her for a man who seems avoidant and stubborn and not willing to really understand her, instead of “healthy” as she attempts to portray. Yes, she wasn’t direct with him at times. She didn’t hold to her own standard of wanting a baby. Bad on her. But she was vocal and insistent at times. And was trying to show him who she was in her own way. He didn’t seem to care in the telling of this. I’m not sure if I admire the honesty or am disappointed in her giving up on her dreams more.
It was frustrating to see an unwanted outcome for the author. We don’t get everything we want in life. But to give up without even trying is a hard truth to live with. There are thousands of men who would have wanted a baby who are, perhaps “healthier” than her husband. I don’t understand why she chose to be with a man who disregarded, not one but, two of her deepest longings (career as well). Perhaps more unwritten about.
No man is worth giving up your deepest longings for. No matter how “self aware” or “healthy” they seem due to their not giving in. Don’t be with someone who is insisting you give up on soul-desire that is healthy and not harmful. To have a marriage full of resentment and resignation isn’t any kind of marriage I would recommend.
A good book about accepting the wrong choices we’ve made.
A Cautionary Tale
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Also good to know there is a lot of mention of rape in this book.
shocking story
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