
Unlovable Bastard
Gay Dark Romance
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Narrated by:
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Nathan Kelly
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By:
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K.A. Merikan
“This is not the night you die.”
After years of working for a loan shark, Robert is done with blood and violence. All he has to show for it is a bag of money and a lifetime of regrets. There’s no other way out of his line of work than in a body bag.
So Robert decides to die.
But on the night he chooses to seal his own fate, destiny offers him a chance at redemption. When Robert saves a handsome young escort from a terrible death, he has no idea he is setting in motion much more than one last attempt at proving that inside the hardened shell, he is a decent human being.
Charming, quick-witted, and full of smiles, Nathan is all Robert could dream of. He’s also ready to fall into the arms of his gruff protector. Robert, on the other hand, has never been with a man and will first need to fight his own demons if he is to accept that his whole being wants to make Nathan his.
With his former boss hunting them both, time is ticking, and Robert might just not get the chance to decide before it’s too late. More importantly though, Robert will stop at nothing to protect the man who’s made him feel alive again, the man who is the only thing between him and the abyss.
“I never had to think much about death before, but I did yesterday. I thought I would die. In a hole. Covered with dirt. Suffocate underground. But then you saved me.”
Possible spoilers:
Themes: enemies to lovers, protector, cruelty, homophobia, crime, self-discovery, family conflict, age gap, escort, self-hate, first time, revenge, on the run
Genre: Dark, gritty, M/M contemporary romance
Content: Scorching hot, emotional, explicit scenes
Length: 90,000 words (stand-alone novel, HEA)
Warning: This story contains scenes of violence, torture, mentions of suicide, offensive language, morally ambiguous characters, homophobia, and homophobic language.
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I’ve really come to love the bad-boy-finds-love story, especially when written by KA Merikan. The authors are truly master-writers of this trope. The characters are always interesting. There’s great chemistry between the couple. In this book, there’s a bit of an enemies-to-lovers angle to some of the story. Those scenes provide my favorite dialogue of the book. If you’re into morally ambiguous criminals that find love and happiness, with suspense and danger, you won’t find a better example.
The listener receives another great performance by Wyatt Baker. His narrating style perfectly suits Merikan’s writing.
‘Unlovable Bastard’ was provided to me, at my request, as a free review copy. This is my voluntary review of the audiobook.
Recommended.
Robert and Nathan's Dark Love Story
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Trigger warnings include homomisia, scenes of torture, suicidal ideation, graphic violence, and gruesome deaths.
I think this story works as an intro to darker K.A. Merikan stories, if you want a good standalone to start with. As someone who has read quite a few of their books at this point, I feel like this book gives off a feeling like the Sex and Mayhem motorcycle club series, and if you’ve read those, this book and the story won’t feel too new to you. Also, this audiobook is narrated by Wyatt Baker as well, so maybe that has something to do with it.
That said, I do actually like Robert and Nathan a lot. We first meet Robert in a cemetery, drinking, and ready to end his own life. He’s been in the gang life under a boss called Vogel and he wants nothing to do with that life anymore. However, when sounds in the cemetery distract him from his grim drunken thoughts, he finds Vogel’s men in the process of digging a grave to bury someone.
That someone turns out to be a guy named Nathan who simply got involved with the wrong guy. Vogel is a man who would never admit he likes having sex with other men. He hired Nathan off an escort site and wined and dined him for a week before he decided that was that, and it was time to get rid of Nathan after that week was up.
Robert still had some good left in him and wanted to feel like he could do something good in his life, so he winded up saving Nathan and thus began their life on the run from Vogel and his men.
I think it’s fun this story took place in Texas and I knew the cities Robert and Nathan winded up traveling through. Since Robert is such a country Texas boy though, I would’ve loved to hear Wyatt Baker give more of a Texan accent for Robert’s voice, and his family. And maybe there should’ve been a bit more of a Canadian one come through for Nathan. There were times where an accent seemed to come through, but it was too subtle and inconsistent, I think.
Unless I missed it, one thing I would’ve liked to see in the story is Robert telling Nathan at some point that their first time together was also Robert’s first time with a man? Nathan is definitely more experienced in this area and seeing how shy Robert was and his reactions toward Nathan while he was having his freak out…well, I think it would’ve helped if there was some communication between them at some point that Robert hadn’t really been with men before. It seemed like a missing conversation to the story.
This is a dark story that definitely does go to some very dark places. Yes, I knew that this was going to end in a HEA but the journey makes you question that, and I love books that can make you question a HEA!! The ending is really quite lovely and I liked the epilogue a lot. It was sweet and you can see that Robert is really happy in his life, which is such a huge difference from where this book started out. I’m just so happy for him and want to give him a hug!!
Like I said, I really enjoyed this story even though there really wasn’t anything NEW new that I haven’t read from the authors before. However, I did find Robert and Nathan to be really great characters and I loved how Robert’s family came to love and accept them for who they are.
***Thanks to Gay Romance Reviews for giving me an audiobook for review!***
Dark, but lovely standalone with a HEA!
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Not really unloveable
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Another good one!!
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I absolutely love Wyatt Baker’s narration. He is one of my favorites! I love how he uses different voices for each character. How he expresses the emotional moments and how he makes me feel like I right there during every moment.
Opposites Attract
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Gritty and fantastic!
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This was an amazing, entertaining, action packed listen.
The author's writing style was compelling, raw and realistic.
Absolutely loved the narration and audio delivery as well
Dark, gritty, emotional
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All that being said, eventually I became completely engrossed, particularly with the evolution of the characters, main and side - especially Robert. I wanted a happy ending for him, Nathan and all the "good guys." I loved the last third or so of the book in particular and I didn't find it remotely predictable. But I won't give any further spoilers, just advising to stick with it if you feel that you want to punch anyone more than you can stand.
As for the audio narration, I found it excellent. Wyatt Baker rarely disappoints.
Surprisingly almost lovable
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