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A Novel
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Narrated by:
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Martin Sarreal
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Mei Mei MacLeod
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By:
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Nicola Dinan
About this listen
An electrifying story of love, betrayal, and the complicated allure of bougie domesticity
“Dinan writes like some kind of demigod. Her fictions make thinkable new realities for how we live and what we might expect from each other."–Torrey Peters, author of Detransition, Baby
You can fall in love with an outline, you can even make a home with one, but there will come a time where you can’t deny the bones their flesh. A person is no fewer than two things.
Thirty years old with a lifetime of dysphoria and irritating exes rattling around in her head, Max is plagued by a deep dissatisfaction. Shouldn't these be the best years of her life? Why doesn't it feel that way? After taking a spill down the stairs at a New Year’s Eve party, she decides to make some changes. First: a stab at good old-fashioned heteronormativity.
Max thinks she’s found the answer in Vincent. While his corporate colleagues, trad friends, and Chinese parents never pictured their son dating a trans woman, he cares for Max in a way she’d always dismissed as a foolish fantasy. But he is also carrying baggage of his own. When the fall-out of a decades-old entanglement resurfaces, Max must decide what forgiveness really means. Can we be more than our worst mistakes? Is it possible to make peace with the past?
Funny, sharp, and poignant, Disappoint Me is a sweeping exploration of love, loss, trans panic, race, millennial angst, and the relationships—familial and romantic—that make us who we are.
©2025 Nicola Dinan (P)2025 Random House AudioListeners also enjoyed...
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“Nicola Dinan writes like some kind of demigod. Her fictions make thinkable new realities for how we live and what we might expect from each other.”―Torrey Peters, author of Detransition Baby
“[A] humorous but heartfelt look at finding love in your 30s and breaking free of the conventions—climbing the career ladder, getting married—that box us all in.”—PopSugar, “32 Essential Books by Trans and Nonbinary Authors to Add to Your Reading List”
“The up-and-coming trans author of Bellies returns with Disappoint Me, where Max, a poet and tech worker, decides to switch up her life by pivoting to heteronormativity. She finds good company in Vincent, a lawyer, who has baggage of his own; a whirlwind and explosive trip to Thailand and a mother who isn’t sure about her son dating a transgender woman.”—Our Culture
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Elizabeth aches for one more precious hour with her son who died in a senseless accident. Andy is desperate to find his first love who vanished after a whirlwind romance. Logan craves the rush of surfing and mountain climbing, yearning to reclaim the freedom he lost after a misstep landed him in a wheelchair. Brooke is looking for an hour of relief from the guilt of an unforgivable mistake.
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I think each VA did a good job!
- By Quinton on 07-08-25
By: Dete Meserve
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The Starving Saints
- A Novel
- By: Caitlin Starling
- Narrated by: Barrie Kreinik
- Length: 13 hrs and 28 mins
- Unabridged
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Aymar Castle has been under siege for six months. Food is running low and there has been no sign of rescue. But just as the survivors consider deliberately thinning their number, the castle stores are replenished. The sick are healed. And the divine figures of the Constant Lady and her Saints have arrived, despite the barricaded gates, offering succor in return for adoration. Soon, the entire castle is under the sway of their saviors, partaking in intoxicating feasts of terrible origin.
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Original & Harrowing
- By Amazon Customer on 06-28-25
By: Caitlin Starling
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Songs of No Provenance
- A Novel
- By: Lydi Conklin
- Narrated by: Kristin James
- Length: 12 hrs and 6 mins
- Unabridged
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Songs of No Provenance tells the story of Joan Vole, an indie folk singer forever teetering on the edge of fame, who flees New York after committing a shocking sexual act onstage that she fears will doom her career. Joan seeks refuge at a writing camp for teenagers in rural Virginia, where she's forced to question her own toxic relationship to artmaking—and her complicated history with a friend and mentee—while finding new hope in her students and a deepening intimacy with a nonbinary artist and fellow camp staff member.
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Interesting story, unlikable protagonist
- By Madeline on 06-24-25
By: Lydi Conklin
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Storybook Ending
- A Novel
- By: Moira Macdonald
- Narrated by: Kelli Tager
- Length: 9 hrs and 19 mins
- Unabridged
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April, a smart and lonely tech worker, worries work from home has gotten out of hand: She’s left an anonymous note in a book for Westley, the clerk at her Seattle neighborhood bookstore who has a gentle smile and looks great in flannel. But thanks to fate, Laura—a busy single mom who had given up on love—buys the book, finds the note, and thinks Westley has left it for her. A handsome man who loves books seems like just the plot twist she has been looking for.
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Clever plot
- By Winsome on 07-04-25
By: Moira Macdonald
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Fundamentally
- A Novel
- By: Nussaibah Younis
- Narrated by: Sarah Slimani
- Length: 9 hrs and 41 mins
- Unabridged
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When Nadia Amin, a witty and bighearted PhD, publishes an article on deradicalization, everything changes. The United Nations comes calling with an opportunity to put her theory into practice and lead a rehabilitation program for women caught in the crosshairs of harmful ideology. And why not? Abandoned by her mother and devastated by unrequited love, she leaps at the chance.
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Narration was Fantastic
- By Ameera on 05-15-25
By: Nussaibah Younis
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Awakened
- By: A.E. Osworth
- Narrated by: A.E. Osworth
- Length: 12 hrs and 18 mins
- Unabridged
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On a morning much like any other, 30-something queer Brooklynite Wilder makes a miraculous discovery: suddenly, as if by magic, they can understand every language in the world. Dazed and disconnected, Wilder is found and taken in by a small coven of trans witches who have all become Awakened with mystical powers of their own.
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Loved this queer magical world
- By Kathryn S. on 05-24-25
By: A.E. Osworth
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Disco Witches of Fire Island
- A Novel
- By: Blair Fell
- Narrated by: Daniel Henning
- Length: 12 hrs and 51 mins
- Unabridged
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It’s 1989, and Joe Agabian and his best friend Ronnie set out to spend their first summer working in the hedonistic gay paradise of Fire Island Pines. Joe is desperate to let loose and finally move beyond the heartbreak of having lost his boyfriend to the HIV/AIDS epidemic. The two friends are quickly taken in by a pair of quirky, older house cleaners. But something seems off, and Joe starts to suspect the two older men of being up to something otherworldly. In truth, Howie and Lenny are members of a secret disco witch coven tasked with protecting the island.
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Fantastic story
- By moose on 06-21-25
By: Blair Fell
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Cinema Love
- A Novel
- By: Jiaming Tang
- Narrated by: Samantha Tan
- Length: 9 hrs and 39 mins
- Unabridged
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While classic war films played, Old Second and his countrymen found intimacy in the screening rooms. In the box office, Bao Mei sold movie tickets to closeted men, guarding their secrets and finding her own happiness with the projectionist. But when Old Second’s passion for his male lover is revealed, a series of haunting events unfold, propelling these characters toward an uncertain future in America.
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Inventive story elegant prose
- By C. FREEMAN on 06-27-25
By: Jiaming Tang
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The Lilac People
- By: Milo Todd
- Narrated by: Max Meyers
- Length: 10 hrs and 58 mins
- Unabridged
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In 1932 Berlin, Bertie, a trans man, and his friends spend carefree nights at the Eldorado Club, the epicenter of Berlin’s thriving queer community. An employee of the renowned Dr. Magnus Hirschfeld at the Institute of Sexual Science, Bertie works to improve queer rights in Germany and beyond, but everything changes when Hitler rises to power. The institute is raided, the Eldorado is shuttered, and queer people are rounded up. Bertie barely escapes with his girlfriend, Sofie, to a nearby farm. There they take on the identities of an elderly couple and live for more than a decade in isolation.
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Rich historical fiction with lovable characters that draw you in
- By Madeleine Hall on 05-10-25
By: Milo Todd
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A Language of Limbs
- A Novel
- By: Dylin Hardcastle
- Narrated by: Zoe Terakes, Aisha Dee, Sonya Cullingford
- Length: 7 hrs and 40 mins
- Unabridged
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A Language of Limbs is a breathtaking spin on a will-they-won’t-they love story; it is a tender epic that explores the weight of a choice, the love of community, and how joy is found in even the darkest corners.
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NOT a sliding doors story
- By JG, Shreveport, LA on 07-05-25
By: Dylin Hardcastle
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A Sharp Endless Need
- A Novel
- By: Marisa Crane
- Narrated by: Dani Martineck
- Length: 8 hrs and 36 mins
- Unabridged
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Star point guard Mack Morris’s senior year of high school begins with twin cataclysms: the death of Mack’s father and the arrival of transfer student Liv Cooper. Playing side by side for their high school basketball team, Mack and Liv discover an electrifying, game-winning chemistry on the court. Off the court, they fall into an equally intoxicating more-than-friendship—one that feels out-of-bounds in their small Pennsylvania town. Mack teeters on the precipice of adulthood as desire and grief collide with drugs, sex, and the looming college signing deadline.
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Love and Basketball: W4W edition
- By Kiernan on 06-27-25
By: Marisa Crane
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A Good Happy Girl
- By: Marissa Higgins
- Narrated by: Ellie Gossage
- Length: 6 hrs and 42 mins
- Unabridged
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Helen, a jittery attorney with a self-destructive streak, is secretly reeling from a disturbing crime of neglect that her parents recently committed. Historically happy to compartmentalize—distracting herself by hooking up with lesbian couples, doting on her grandmother, and flirting with a young administrative assistant—Helen finally meets her match with Catherine and Katrina, a married couple who startle and intrigue her with their ever-increasing sexual and emotional intensity.
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A good happy girl
- By Elizabeth Hall on 06-07-24
By: Marissa Higgins
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The Bombshell
- A Novel
- By: Darrow Farr
- Narrated by: Imani Jade Powers
- Length: 13 hrs and 30 mins
- Unabridged
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Corsica, 1993. As a sun-drenched Mediterranean summer heads into full swing, beautiful and brash seventeen-year-old Séverine Guimard is counting down the days until graduation, dreaming of stardom while smoking cigarettes, and seducing boys in her class to pass the time. The pampered French American daughter of a politician, Séverine knows she’s destined for bigger things.
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Laundry Lint has more depth!
- By Martha Moran on 05-31-25
By: Darrow Farr
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Tell Them You Lied
- By: Laura Leffler
- Narrated by: Sarah Naughton
- Length: 10 hrs and 22 mins
- Unabridged
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Anna had never met anyone like Willow. Entering art school with lofty ideas about Art and her role in it, Anna was wholly unprepared for someone as mysterious, moody—and cool—as Willow. Here was Anna’s muse and collaborator all in one, ready to bring her in on Art’s great secrets. Now, five years later, Anna is weary. Where art school was boundless creativity and collaboration, the New York art scene is all about survival. Worse: Willow’s true nature as a muse only to herself has become nakedly apparent, as has her cruelty.
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Mean Girls in Life
- By April & Danger on 06-16-25
By: Laura Leffler