
Nick, Very Deeply
8 Million Hearts, Book 5
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Michael Fell
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Spencer Spears
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They say soulmates don’t exist. But they’ve never met Nick Sawyer....
Eli: In my defense, I didn’t think I’d see Nick again. If I had, I would never have kissed him.
I got a fake ID because I was bored, not because I planned on meeting anyone. But from the moment I saw Nick - all tall, dark, and librarian-y, with hardcover books falling out of his messenger bag and eyes that made me forget how to breathe - I knew I needed to know him better.
So maybe I told a little white lie about my birthday. And maybe I went into the city again, and again, just so I could run into him. And maybe, on that last morning, I kissed him, because I knew it was good-bye.
Except, turns out, it wasn’t. Whoops.
Only now, I have to spend the rest of the year working with Nick, and it’s clear he wishes we’d never met. He says I have to move on, but the more I get to know him, the more impossible that seems. How do you move on from someone as strong and smart and sweet as Nick? How do you get over the first person who’s told you that you matter?
And what the hell do you do when, out of nowhere, he kisses you again?
“I can’t keep fighting this. I need you. I need us.”
Nick: I tried to keep my distance. I tried to forget that kiss. I tried to remind myself how dangerous it was, just being around Eli. How much I was putting in jeopardy.
I tried...but I never stood a chance.
Eli is everything I’m not. Reckless and wild, where all I’ve ever been is cautious. Open and loving, where I’ve only ever been scared. Willing to take risks, to be vulnerable, to be brave. I want to be brave enough to deserve him.
I know it’s wrong, but before I know it, I’ve fallen for this crazy, beautiful boy and his ocean-blue eyes. Before I know it, I’m kissing him again.
“I’d take it all back if I could.” That’s what I’m supposed to say. But the truth is, I wouldn’t. I would choose Eli every time.
Even if it means losing everything.
Nick, Very Deeply is book five in the 8 Million Hearts series. While each book can be listened to on its own, they're even more fun to listen together. Nick, Very Deeply is a m/m romance, full of snark, sweetness, and a healthy serving of steam. Teacher/student and hurt/comfort themes with a delicious slow burn. No cheating, no cliffhangers, and a guaranteed HEA.
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Sweet Story
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Narrator Michael Fell does a marvelous job.
Nick and Eli
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Michael Fell is the Narrator and does a fantastic job with voicework. The performance and recording is smooth and clear and very enjoyable.
fantastic
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Nick and Eli
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Long but worth the listen
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Lovely!
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Excellent Narration
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When Nick and Eli meet briefly one morning at the train station, there's interest sparking between them right away. Eli determines to see Nick again and goes to the station two more times. Since he believes he'll never see Nick again after these few meetings, he lets Nick think he's in college. He's actually in high school (but he's 19 so it's not like THAT). A few weeks later they find themselves in an advisor/advisee situation. Will this new wrinkle doom the relationship before it starts?
There are a few themes (tropes?) at play in Spears' story. It's a slow-burn romance, thankfully not with contrived and overwrought angst. It is believable in the context of the story Spears is telling. The age-gap, while not terribly large, is an obstacle for Nick. He feels like he's taking advantage of the younger Eli. This becomes more troubling to Nick when he becomes an advisor to Eli's church youth group. That's where a smidgen of forbidden-love comes into play. Nick is extremely wary of the power imbalance that could exist between them, while Eli doesn't give it much thought at all. That's where the opposites-attract theme running throughout the book makes the most impact. Eli is bold, brash and even reckless at times and Nick stays safe in routine and could be considered boring by some. All of these elements combine to tell an emotionally charged story of conquering one's fears and letting love in despite the vulnerability it creates.
I loved Michael Fell's narration from the start. His perfect voice acting brings this story to life. I especially loved the snarky sarcastic tone he brings to Eli's part of the story.
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Recommended.
A Great Story with Terrific Narration
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As feelings deepen, mixed messages send them both on an emotional rollercoaster and their struggles and emotions feel very real. While I think Nick's morality concerns are a bit overblown, given he and Eli are both adults, I felt for him and was rooting hard for him and Eli (who is an open-hearted sweetie) to find happiness together. This story is a heartfelt relationship deep-dive with well-developed MCs to care about and the lead up to their HEA is very heartwarming.
I don't normally go for audio books this long, but narrator Michael Fell made this listen so enjoyable with an emotionally rich performance that had me feeling this story alongside the characters. I received this free review copy audio book by request and have left this honest review voluntarily.
Wonderfully Narrated Emotional Slow-Burn Romance
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Narration by Michael Fell was good. Great flow and pacing. Kept me entertained through the whole story.
Emotional rollercoaster
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