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Narrated by:
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Steven Jay Cohen
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By:
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Ritchie Farrell
About this listen
Heroin is a Beast, and that Beast has infiltrated every town and city in America. The Beast has come for your sons and daughters. The Beast is hunting for your fathers and mothers. And that Beast has only one mission, to bury as many Americans as possible.
I Am a Heroin Addict is the story of how Ritchie Farrell survived a ten-bag-a-day heroin habit to become a best-selling author, WGA screenwriter, and recipient of the prestigious du-Pont-Columbia Award for excellence in journalism.
Contains mature themes.
©2017 Ritchie Farrell (P)2018 TantorListeners also enjoyed...
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For the past decade, author Tian Dayton has been researching trauma and addiction, and how psychodrama (or sociometry group psychotherapy) can be used in their treatment. This latest book identifies the interconnection of trauma and addictive behavior, and shows why they can become an unending cycle. This groundbreaking audiobook offers listeners effective ways to work through their traumas in order to heal their addictions and their predilection toward what clinicians call self-medicating.
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Wellspring of knowledge in trauma!
- By MB on 06-02-23
By: Tian Dayton
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The Streets of Baltimore
- The Shocking Addiction Memoir of Brandon Novak
- By: Joe Frantz
- Narrated by: Brandon Novak
- Length: 6 hrs and 51 mins
- Unabridged
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Brandon Novak, an actor known for the films Jackass and Viva La Bam, among others, was a teenage skateboarder, but his lust for heroin led to a junkie’s destiny on the streets of Baltimore. Arrests, rehabs, and drug-tortured love triangles consumed Novak’s life, until his childhood friend and Jackass alumnus Bam Margera guided him to MTV fame. But Novak’s stardom led him down a self-destructive path that forced him to sculpt his future.
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outstanding
- By Trish Combs on 02-11-25
By: Joe Frantz
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Not a Proper Child
- By: Elizabeth Sheppard, Nicky Nicholls
- Narrated by: Julia Franklin
- Length: 9 hrs and 12 mins
- Unabridged
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Left as a newborn in a box outside Stoke City Football ground, her grandparents took her into their home. But instead of finding a sanctuary, Nicky was subjected to horrific sexual abuse throughout her childhood. In 1951, when Nicky was six years old, her glamorous-looking estranged mother arrived on the doorstep to 'rescue' her. But Nicky's hopes of a safe and loving family were very soon smashed, and her world became darker still.
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Very Raw
- By Jessica on 04-14-25
By: Elizabeth Sheppard, and others
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Blackout Girl (With New and Updated Content for the #MeToo Era)
- Tracing My Scars from Addiction and Sexual Assault
- By: Jennifer Storm
- Narrated by: Jennifer Storm
- Length: 6 hrs and 29 mins
- Unabridged
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Sexual assault, addiction, and other traumatic experiences can leave both physical and emotional scars. For Jennifer Storm, these scars serve as a reminder - both of the darkness and suffering she once experienced, and of how far she has come. Blackout Girl is the heartbreaking, enlightening, and inspiring story of Jennifer's narrow escape from her own self-destructive instincts when all of the odds, and systems, were stacked against her.
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Amazing for those in recovery and have SA trauma
- By Taylor on 03-29-25
By: Jennifer Storm
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Tweak
- Growing Up on Methamphetamines
- By: Nic Sheff
- Narrated by: Paul Michael Garcia
- Length: 12 hrs and 17 mins
- Unabridged
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Nic Sheff was drunk for the first time at age 11. In the years that followed, he would regularly smoke pot, do cocaine and ecstasy, and develop addictions to crystal meth and heroin. Even so, he felt like he would always be able to quit and put his life together whenever he needed to. It took a violent relapse one summer in California to convince him otherwise.
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Painful Journey
- By David on 11-15-10
By: Nic Sheff
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I Love You, More
- Short Stories of Addiction, Recovery, and Loss from the Family's Perspective
- By: Blake E. Cohen CAP
- Narrated by: Joe Hempel
- Length: 2 hrs and 17 mins
- Unabridged
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I Love You, More offers insight into the various perspectives and experiences of family members who have dealt with the harrowing disease of addiction. The goal of this quick, accessible book is to be the conduit that allows you to enter the body and mind of a substance abuser and their family, to see the world through their eyes as they navigate their way through one of the most heart-breaking and gut-wrenching hardships they will ever face.
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Very good
- By Leslie Russell on 11-05-23
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Saving Jake
- When Addiction Hits Home
- By: D'Anne Burwell
- Narrated by: Morgan Hallett
- Length: 9 hrs and 17 mins
- Unabridged
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D'Anne Burwell's smart, athletic son - raised in a loving and prosperous home - begins abusing OxyContin as a teenager, and within a year drops out of college, walks out of rehab, and lands homeless on the streets of Boulder. Struggling with fear, guilt, and a desperate need to protect her son, D'Anne grapples with her husband's anger and her daughter's depression as the family disease of addiction impacts them all. She discovers the terrifying links between prescription-drug abuse and skyrocketing heroin use.
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An honest look at a mother’s journey into her son’s addiction battle
- By Amazon Customer on 07-16-20
By: D'Anne Burwell
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Memoirs Aren't Fairytales
- A Story of Addiction
- By: Marni Mann
- Narrated by: Arden Hammersmith
- Length: 8 hrs and 49 mins
- Unabridged
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Leaving behind a nightmarish college experience, 19-year-old Nicole and her best friend Eric escape their home of Bangor, Maine to start a new life in Boston. Fragile and scared, Nicole desperately seeks a new beginning to help erase her past. But there is something besides freedom waiting for her in the shadows - a drug that will make every day a nightmare.
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Misleading and moralizing
- By Mary on 01-03-19
By: Marni Mann
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Fire and Ice
- The Meth Bible
- By: Boston Bornagain
- Narrated by: Ben Donaubauer
- Length: 20 hrs and 50 mins
- Unabridged
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To meet God, some of us must first walk with the devil. This brutally honest series of events is based on a real-life spiritual awakening of a living man. Listener beware. This book is full of shocking sexual situations, illicit drug use, and Jesus. "Fire and Ice: The Meth Bible" is the authority on the "ice game."
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Fascinating tale
- By Josh Nielsen on 12-27-24
By: Boston Bornagain
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Suburban Junky
- From Honor Roll to Heroin Addict (Tenth Anniversary)
- By: Jude Hassan
- Narrated by: Virtual Voice
- Length: 5 hrs and 39 mins
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Jude Hassan was an ordinary, all-American kid. He had two amazing parents who gave him everything, especially a loving home. At fourteen, Jude's family moved from their home in the city to a beautiful suburban town on the outskirts of St. Louis. Suddenly, Jude was faced with being the new kid for the first time in his young life. He struggled to find his way in his new surroundings but continued to make straight A’s and excel in sports. When a fellow student approached him about attending a party, he was apprehensive but eager to experience his first social gathering. Unfortunately, that ...
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Wonderful story of healing and family values.
- By Taryn on 07-25-24
By: Jude Hassan
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A Heart Without A Home
- A memoir about homelessness through the eyes of a young girl
- By: Nichole Carpenter
- Narrated by: Virtual Voice
- Length: 4 hrs and 8 mins
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9-year-old Nichole and her parents are evicted from their home because both of her parents are addicted to heroin. With nowhere left to turn, they are now homeless. In order to survive they must dig through dumpsters, beg, and steal. While living on the streets, Nichole struggles to understand why people treat them differently.
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AI is not the way to go
- By Kerry Beckette on 11-16-24
Great Storytelling
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Loved it!!!! Related way too much
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Great read
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Phenomenal Story
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Devastation
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Great read
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Finished the book in less than 24 hours.
Great story.
Finished it in less than 24 hours
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Well done!
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Well done!!
Raw Emotions
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Kudos to the author and anyone else that successfully leaves substance misuse behind.
Couldn’t put it down.
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