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  • The Weight of Air

  • A Story of the Lies About Addiction and the Truth About Recovery
  • By: David Poses
  • Narrated by: Charlie Thurston
  • Length: 8 hrs and 7 mins
  • 4.6 out of 5 stars (107 ratings)

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The Weight of Air

By: David Poses
Narrated by: Charlie Thurston
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While his wife and two-year-old daughter watched TV in the living room, David Poses was in the kitchen, measuring the distance from his index finger to his armpit. He needed to be sure he could pull the trigger with a shotgun barrel in his mouth. Twenty-six inches. Thirty-two years old. More than a decade in a double life fueled by depression and heroin.

In his groundbreaking memoir, The Weight of Air, David chronicles his struggle to overcome mental illness and addiction. By age 19, he'd been through medical detox, inpatient rehab, 12-step programs, and a halfway house. He saw his drug use as a symptom of depression, but the experts insisted that addiction was the problem. Over the next 13 years, he went from one relapse to the next, drowning in guilt, shame, and secrets, until he finally found an evidence-based treatment that not only saved his life, but helped him thrive.

With grit, humor, and brutal honesty, David's story exposes the danger in traditional recovery models: They actually increase stigma and the risk of overdose, relapse, and death. As depression and addiction rates skyrocket and overdose fatalities surge, The Weight of Air is a scathing indictment of our failed response to the opioid crisis-and proof that success is possible.

©2021 David Poses (P)2021 Tantor
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An Important Book

I struggled to finish this book, but am glad I did as the message is a vital one for addicts and their families.

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Excellent

Just finished listening to the audiobook. The story was so honest, and important. I am in the mental health field and thankfully medication assisted treatment is becoming more available and accepted as a best practice for treatment of heroin. I was so sad to see that Poses died a few years ago. Such a tragedy. But he clearly made the world better by sharing his experiences during his short life.

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A brutally honest recovery memoir

It’s high time (pun intended) that the standard narrative of abstinence only recovery is challenged. Opiate addicts benefit from medication assisted recovery. Stop shaming those on buprenorphene - it works and it saves lives.

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Excellent!

Hard to put down. As someone living in the recovery world, Ifound it spot on!

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Great book!

Fantastic account of substance use disorder and recovery! You will help many! Great job sir! And, thank you! :)

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Wish I’d read this book sooner

Unfortunately my son overdosed. Wish I’d read this book sooner. He was on methadone, and stigmatized

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Finally, the truth

Finally, a truthful story about drugs and the people that do them. Especially when you are still participating in the world/living life. You don't always end up in the gutter. And the ending had me cheering. Drugs can ruin your life , yeah . But so can gambling , drinking, shopping too much etc. Drug users don't corner the market on ruining their lives because they do drugs. And I absolutely agree that alcohol is much worse. Also, parenting matters. The way you treat your kids, talk to your kids matter. Childhood trauma isn't always being beaten or neglected in a physical sense. Divorce, inconsistent parenting, narcissism, enabling, codependency, favoritism, etc, all affect kids as they are growing up. In these cases, they will turn to anything to help them feel better, be it food, sex, drugs, shopping, or anything. If they have resources and self-awareness, they may go into therapy and work through their "stuff,...but more often than not, it goes the other way.

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Wow he is so real snd raw, loved it!

I loved this book, it is easy to follow and touches all of the bases on addiction.

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Truthful and relatable

David recounts his life struggling with addiction and mental health in a way that I think many will relate to. He covers how traditional rehabilitation and faith based programs lack any medical ground and "bandaid" the addiction rather than the root.

David felt like a friend.

I just learned of his passing and I am heartbroken. I am so proud of him and his work.

I may be shouting into the ether, but thank you, David, for reminding so many of us that we are not alone.

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An honest and humorous ‘coming of addiction’ story

Incredibly well written true story of a life long addict struggling with depression. The story, told with vulnerable honesty, is both hilarious at times and frighteningly sad. A great read to learn how addicts really respond to rehab and the improbable challenges of trying to stay clean.

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