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The Motherload

By: Sarah Hoover
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An unflinching motherhood memoir that dares to ask what happens when “what to expect when you’re expecting” turns out to be months of rage, anguish, brain fog, and a total surrender of sex, career, and identity.

“A long overdue reality check.” —Oprah Daily
“Honest, unapologetic, and brutally funny.” —Stephanie Danler, New York Times bestselling author of Sweetbitter

A Most Anticipated Book of 2025 by Oprah Daily, Town & Country, and Brit + Co

“The kid was objectively a tiny worm, even worse, a worm with my nose.” Welcome to Sarah Hoover’s candid and propulsive take on motherhood where she turns the ecstatic narrative women have been fed—one of immediate connection to your child followed by a joyful path of maternal discovery—on its head.

Like most of us, Sarah Hoover grew up imagining a certain life for herself, and when she moved from Indiana to New York City to study art history, the life she’d imagined began falling into place. She got her degree in art history, landed a job in a gallery, made friends, and met interesting artists, one of whom became her husband. But when Hoover got pregnant, everything in her life began to unravel.

She felt like an imposter in her own body. She grew distant from her friends and husband. Anxiety, fear, guilt, and shame threatened to swallow her. She also experienced trauma at the hands of one of her doctors—a stark trigger. And when her son was born, there was no… joy.

Her despair was persistent, even with help, therapy, and pills. Grieving a lost identity and angry at the world around her, she found herself despising her baby, her husband, and herself. She was afraid it might not end. With the help of a doctor’s diagnosis, Hoover began to understand the cluster of symptoms that informed her experience—she was drowning in postpartum depression—and that she wasn’t a bad mother or a failed woman.

At its core, The Motherload is about learning to forgive yourself. It’s a rejection of the cultural idea of the mother as a perfect being. And it’s an honest, propulsive, and often funny take on the vicissitudes of marriage, life, and parenting—a motherhood memoir unlike any other.

©2025 Sarah Hoover (P)2025 Simon & Schuster Audio
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Meaningful, difficult, funny

While the protracted description of her depressed brain’s defective thinking could be tedious at times, I think this is an important description of what postpartum depression can be like. I think it could be useful to women to understand the possible variance of symptoms in the condition and hear a story about how to overcome it. This book captures much of the emotional depth and complexity of motherhood, how joyful, profound, and harrowing it can be all at once. I also appreciated the discussion on how personal identity fluctuates during the process of becoming a mom. I found that relatable and true. Essentially, no holds barred here. I meaningful work that validates any feelings or experience about becoming a mom.

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Absolutely devoured this!

Honest, funny, and vulnerable. Great book/audiobook. Highly recommend this. And the author does a great job of narrating.

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Full circle journey

Real, vulnerable, and engaging. While the first half of the book may be almost scary for expecting moms, I felt proud of and inspired by the author’s personal growth by the end. -mom to a toddler

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A real, honest account of new motherhood

I’ve been pregnant four times, birthing three (lost one), So I’ve been through the motherhood experience. Sarah covers countless areas of new motherhood in the realist way, and her narration was lovely. This is how my friends and I talk about motherhood. It was refreshing and also took me right back to some of the most painful parts of those early years. It was definitely a hurts so good situation. I always appreciate honesty in experiences. We’re not alone. We’re all connected. TBH, I’ll listen again in about six months just to enjoy it all over again.

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A great unfiltered perspective of becoming a mother

I loved the authors performance, it felt like catching up with a girlfriend. I love the author’s descriptions, she really paints a picture - which is so fitting for her. I felt a spectrum of emotions while listening to this book. I loved how raw, real, and truthful she is about her experiences. Would recommend to anyone who has become a mom.

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Amazing! 10/10

Loved everything about this book. Very raw, honest, vulnerable and just straight up relatable. I encourage all first time pregnant people to read and take notes especially when it comes to prepping n planning for the birth of your baby and your postpartum recovery…. As a society we fail to prep and plan for allllllllllll the changes that comes with becoming a parent for the first time. One of the biggest and hardest emotions I believe always comes up for first time parents is Grief…. Grief from the freedom and carefree life you had prior to now being on 24/7 baby duties from one second to the next. ITS HARDDDDD regardless if your 16 yrs old or 40! I love how this memoir takes you on her journey through it all and how she was able to find herself out of that dark time and find joy and happiness again.

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Great book!

Honest. Raw. Relatable. Hilarious. Gut wrenching. Un-put-down-able. Healing. Sarah Hoover vulnerably and shamelessly writes about the paradoxes of motherhood by sharing her story.

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Raw intimate thoughts that moms don’t talk about!

Personal story that is both unique and not unique to a lot of moms with nice reading

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The rawness and realness

What a book, I finished it in just a few days. A must read for any mother and any woman.

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Messy, real, hilarious

The most honest and relatable account of motherhood. Well written and intriguing. I love the way art is weaved into the articulation of the transition from woman to mother.

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